Was reading email from sister, a very supportive message from the beginning of the email,
i think parents rather you to resign and stay at malaysia. Never mind lah, find job after you back to malaysia.
Was very overwhelmed with their understanding, as I expect they must be scolding me for leaving my job, without worrying about my financial ability.
But the next paragraph of the content gave me a shock,
Half way writting this letter, mother called me informed that grandfather passed away just now at 26/12/06, noon
I am so sorry that I am not with the family at that moment. Just like when Ah Mah passed away, I was only at the ceremony for a while 🙁 to rush for STPM exam the next day.
I quickly call sister, guilt in my heart while talking to her, made me feel so bad.
Feeling guilty because I was supposed to visit Ah Gong during my days in KL last month, sister has been reminding me again and again but everytime i will have reason to break my promise :(:( Her words really apply to the situation now,
“if you don’t go see him now, then you wan to see when he’s not here anymore?”
Even now when he’s not here anymore, I can’t see him for the last time!
But sister didn’t scold me even a word, she just told me the situation. She even put me to talk to brother, he was there when it happened. He said Ah Gong suppose to undergo operation but even before the operation, his heart had already stopped.
In the end, siser just told me ‘no need come back la, call father and tell him’.
Then I called father’s mobile,
bad daughter : ‘wey wey, ah pa? ong lea si ah…’
mother : ‘wey wey? u calling from england? are u alright?’
bad daughter : ‘yes yes, in London now, I am fine, I am alright’
mother : ‘you don’t have to come back, never mind..’
(heard father keeps saying ‘no need come back, no need come back’
mother : ‘thats all la, nothing la’
That’s my parents…they worry the phone charge will be very high, so they just make it as short as possible. I luv my family. Each and everyone of them. And I miss them so much now.