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色.戒, 中国不能亡

色.戒, 中国不能亡

终于看完了这个片子。
应为 chilam 在他的 blog 写了

。。。看了兩遍, 感覺一次比一次好看。。。
  很感動 感動於李安導演的認真.
  感動於偉仔把易先生的恐懼表現得淋漓盡致.
  感動於湯唯的投入與奉獻 。。。

所以我也一直在找。。。终于给我找到了。
第二次才能找到“完整”的。 哈哈, 就是没有 ‘censored’ 的。

其实我不看太过分的床上戏,也完全没看过三级片。
但应为这个片子不同, 评论太好了。 很好奇。
到底是什么特别动作? 湯唯演的有多好?
梁朝偉有多厉害?? 还有现在很红的李安, 是否真的那么名不虚传吗??。

所以我就很用心的看。 果然,不错。
有一段,我特别感动。不,不是那些 “yoga” 动作, 而是这句,“中国不能亡”。
好!好!好!
我的爱国精神又来了。 其实不是我的国家,可是我对中国是真的有一忠不可思议的热情。
明朝的 “长平公主”,北京的 “紫禁城”, 日本的 “东亚病夫”, 国父孫中山, 当然还有我最爱的宋家姐妹。。。太让我兴奋了!

Soong_sisters

中国到如今就好像一个老太太,以熬过很多风风雨雨。
还记得,当我第一次站在中国的土地上,我对自己说,“这就是中国哦”.
中国太大了, 还要时间才能再繁荣起来。

Forbidden City

你看,中国隨隨便便一个故事就那么精彩!
色.戒 是说六个傻瓜想杀那这日本的中国狗。。。可是最后都是 。。。 (自己看)
哈哈,我心是在想,有空没事做吗??? lolijin….

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应该说,“英雄难过美男关”! 湯唯的角色到最后还是被梁朝偉感动了。。。
然后,我真不明白那个很爱国的王力宏为什么到最后才想到要他的女人。
可是太遲了。 湯唯说,“三年前你可以的,为什么不。。。”
活该!!! 湯唯演的王佳芝, 她的犧生是真的好大好大。
湯唯为了这部片子也犧生好大好大!
难怪他在哪獎时会那么感动,那么诚恳的谢谢大家!
我看好它,他不只是靠美貌,靠她不穿衣服的嬴的最佳新人獎, 她是真的有实力的!

tang wei win

Chee Yan’s Wedding

Chee Yan’s Wedding

Celine and Alan Finally it was the day that she has long awaited.
On the 16th December of 2007, CY, one of my closest friend officially got married.
Attended their R.O.M on 20/07/2007.
I have attended a lot of weddings before, and I appreciate and sincerely give my blessings to each couple.
See my infamous TMBGOE (The Most Beautiful Girl On Earth) gallery.
Those published girls are all my buddies. To attend wedding dinner for most people might not be 100% good news, because that means $$$ flies. Some even think its troublesome.

But for me, I think its a blessing. Due to my “extraordinary high sentimental” nature, I always attend weddings and feeling touched afterward. Even before the failure of my first relationship, I already feel that people who managed to find their others half and tie on their knot to live life together is something very difficult, thus I am very very happy they found it.
Each time, I will really tell the groom of my girls that, “please take good care of my friend”.
I guess that’s because of LJ, the one I love but not the one who loves me, and of course will not dare to think about myself getting married. When I met another “him”, I really thought he’s the fated one. But its just a huge mistake.
I am even more convinced and believe that to find the ‘REAL’ one is really not easy leh…

On the wedding night, I saw CY’s ex-bf(s). One of them was even someone whom I have big and bad impression on.
I feel weird at first, how come she doesn’t feel ackward seeing those guy? Those guys who once told her that they will take care of her life? Those who said will love her forever? and in the end, they were just seeing her marrying another guy?!!!!
But during the dinner, when I see these guys cheers for her and husband, I was enlightened, I guess the answer is the art of “forgive and forget”, which is something that I can never do, at least for this moment. I tell myself, IF and ONLY IF I am lucky enough to hold a wedding, I will definitely not going to invite HIM. My MSN message still put “i will never forgive u…u owe me”. Its been there for few weeks and will be in my heart forever. Call me stupid for torturing myself but I think to forgive him is just like telling him that, ‘never mind, you hurt me, its ok’.
But honestly, I know in my heart, I am not confident I can find someone to walk with me forever. Even if someone telling me, I will not trust anyone anymore.
So, since I am not going to get married, that could be the reason why I am treating each of my friend’s wedding seriously.
Spending money for dress, shoes, hair-do, make up etc.

原來愛情這麼傷

原來愛情這麼傷

有一天終於打完 思念的一場戰

我睜開眼睛 卻感覺不到天亮
東西吃一半 莫名其妙哭一場
我忍住不想 時間變得更漫長
也與你有關 否則又開始胡思亂想

**我日月無光 忙得不知所以然
找朋友交談 其實全幫不上忙
以為會習慣 有你在才是習慣
你曾住在我心上 現在空了一個地方

原來愛情這麼傷 比想像中還難
淚水總是不聽話 幸福躲起來不聲不響
太多道理太牽強 道理全是一樣
說的時候很簡單 愛上後卻正巧打亂
**

只想變的堅強 強到能夠去忘
無所謂悲傷 只要學會抵抗

原來愛情這麼傷
原來愛情是這樣 這樣峰迴路轉
淚水明明流不乾 瞎了眼還要再愛一趟
有一天終於打完 思念的一場戰
回過頭再看一看
原來愛情那麼傷
下次還會不會這樣

啊 多麼痛的領悟, 別再為愛受苦

啊 多麼痛的領悟, 別再為愛受苦

別再為愛受苦

我以為我會哭 但是我沒有
我只是怔怔望著你的腳步
給你我最後的祝福 這何嚐不是一種領悟
讓我把自己看清楚 雖然那無愛的痛苦
將日日夜夜在我靈魂最深處

我以為我會報復 但是我沒有
當我看到我深愛過的男人
竟然像孩子一樣無助 這何嚐不是一種領悟
讓你把自己看清楚 被愛是奢侈的幸福
可惜你從來不在乎

啊 一段感情就此結束
啊 一顆心眼看要荒蕪
我們的愛若是錯誤 願你我沒有白白受苦
若曾真心真意付出 就應該滿足

啊 多麼痛的領悟
你曾是我的全部
只是我回首來時路的每一步
都走的好孤獨
啊 多麼痛的領悟
你曾是我的全部 只願你掙脫情的枷鎖
愛的束縳 任意追逐

別再為愛受苦

我以為我會報復 但是我沒有
當我看到我深愛過的男人
竟然像孩子一樣無助 這何嚐不是一種領悟
讓你把自己看清楚 被愛是奢侈的幸福
可惜你從來不在乎

啊 一段感情就此結束
啊 一顆心眼看要荒蕪
我們的愛若是錯誤 願你我沒有白白受苦
若曾真心真意付出 就應該滿足

啊 多麼痛的領悟
你曾是我的全部
只是我回首來時路的每一步
都走的好孤獨
啊 多麼痛的領悟
你曾是我的全部 只願你掙脫情的枷鎖
愛的束縳 任意追逐

啊 多麼痛的領悟
你曾是我的全部
只是我回首來時路的每一步
都走的好孤獨
啊 多麼痛的領悟
你曾是我的全部 只願你掙脫情的枷鎖
愛的束縳 任意追逐

別再為愛受苦

很了解他的心情

很了解他的心情

Once upon a time,

哭了

I wrote, “not happy”. He asked me, ‘What can I do to make you happy?’

I tried my best to get into his heart

I was the only one trying…

But it’s useless because he never want to open it for me

Weird, I just keep trying, why I never feel stupid then?

Did I fell for the wrong person?

Whatever I do, it never works

That’s the fact

It’s unfair, you owe me for the rest of your life

Why start when you don’t plan to keep?

I am tired

你特地的

你特地的

你这样做是没用的。伤我心的事,你做了多得很。

你每一次都做到,都能把我心伤的好像无法呼吸一样。

我是真的以为我放下了,为什么,为什么你当粗要进入我的世界????

到死那天我都还是这样问,为什么??????????????????

我恨你,我爱你,我恨你 我爱你 我恨你 我爱你 我恨你 我爱你 我恨你 我爱你 我恨你。。。

我乱了。到底爱还是恨???

我很想死,你知道吗??? 可是我不能。。。我不能。。。我要为别人而活。

我一辈子都会恨你。

You need discipline and executions!

You need discipline and executions!

There are five rules that I MUST follow for the rest of the month, in December 2007.
If I break any of these rules, I will not go to Australia to attend Juan’s graduation in May, 2008:
I commit myself on these:

1) Not to be late to office, not later than 9am!
2) Not to sleep later than 1am every night.

3) Do not drink nescafe anymore.
4) Do not eat excessively.

5) DO NOT CHECK ON HIS WEBSITE ANYMORE!!!!!

Stupid me, still crying again! Asking for his pictures when don’t see updates on his website, but when he did, feel pain!

His shadow in my life is slowly fading….

His shadow in my life is slowly fading….

This morning, I had a lot of dreams, its just like many short stories flashing through my mind.
I “saw” many ppl in the dreams, including “him”.
I dreamt that we all are still with CIS, and he just got promoted by V. But I was at my desk, dare not look at him, but feeling so happy for his promotion and then keep checking his website. Haha….what the heck!
I don’t understand, what is dream? why we dream and why we dream so???
And there are a lots more. Even the twin brothers who are my primary schoolmates. “Tan Wei Yew” and “Tan Wei Aun”.
Argh, it’s crazy. No idea what is happening to me. I just want a good sleep during the weekend but my mind never stop thinking.

Recently, I have been busy with life. Worry and pressure at work, playing Wii in the office, going concert, karaoke and dinner with colleagues, feeling ‘beh song’ with some ppl, and of course, the bear who always think I like to smile and that cheers his days. That’s not true, when he gets to know me more, he’ll see many troubles haunting this fat lady behind the shinny smiles.

Erm, but there is one thing that I still do everyday, no matter how busy am I, is to check his website. Hoping to see more of his writings and pictures. I’ll check like, during the day or night. Haha….it has like, became a habit to me liao, just like i need a cup of nescafe every morning, or need to watch tv at night. A norm already.
But its good that at least now I don’t feel pain to do so anymore. My life is going on….so does he….
I read Ruru’s blog, always feel that we are quite alike. But i guess I am way “luckier”, at least my HE don’t drag, cut it off, clear cut, until the blood splashing everywhere, then he just wipe it like never happen in his life at all, leaving me the stupid fei poh to keep dreaming of him now and then. But I know there’s improvement. I know his shadow is slowly fading away…..

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