应为 chilam 在他的 blog 写了，
第二次才能找到“完整”的。 哈哈， 就是没有 ‘censored’ 的。
但应为这个片子不同， 评论太好了。 很好奇。
梁朝偉有多厉害？？ 还有现在很红的李安， 是否真的那么名不虚传吗？？。
有一段，我特别感动。不，不是那些 “yoga” 动作, 而是这句，“中国不能亡”。
明朝的 “长平公主”，北京的 “紫禁城”， 日本的 “东亚病夫”, 国父孫中山， 当然还有我最爱的宋家姐妹。。。太让我兴奋了！
色.戒 是说六个傻瓜想杀那这日本的中国狗。。。可是最后都是 。。。 （自己看）
活该！！！ 湯唯演的王佳芝， 她的犧生是真的好大好大。
intitle:index.of + mp3 + “蕭敬騰”
Finally it was the day that she has long awaited.
On the 16th December of 2007, CY, one of my closest friend officially got married.
Attended their R.O.M on 20/07/2007.
I have attended a lot of weddings before, and I appreciate and sincerely give my blessings to each couple.
See my infamous TMBGOE (The Most Beautiful Girl On Earth) gallery.
Those published girls are all my buddies. To attend wedding dinner for most people might not be 100% good news, because that means $$$ flies. Some even think its troublesome.
But for me, I think its a blessing. Due to my “extraordinary high sentimental” nature, I always attend weddings and feeling touched afterward. Even before the failure of my first relationship, I already feel that people who managed to find their others half and tie on their knot to live life together is something very difficult, thus I am very very happy they found it.
Each time, I will really tell the groom of my girls that, “please take good care of my friend”.
I guess that’s because of LJ, the one I love but not the one who loves me, and of course will not dare to think about myself getting married. When I met another “him”, I really thought he’s the fated one. But its just a huge mistake.
I am even more convinced and believe that to find the ‘REAL’ one is really not easy leh…
On the wedding night, I saw CY’s ex-bf(s). One of them was even someone whom I have big and bad impression on.
I feel weird at first, how come she doesn’t feel ackward seeing those guy? Those guys who once told her that they will take care of her life? Those who said will love her forever? and in the end, they were just seeing her marrying another guy?!!!!
But during the dinner, when I see these guys cheers for her and husband, I was enlightened, I guess the answer is the art of “forgive and forget”, which is something that I can never do, at least for this moment. I tell myself, IF and ONLY IF I am lucky enough to hold a wedding, I will definitely not going to invite HIM. My MSN message still put “i will never forgive u…u owe me”. Its been there for few weeks and will be in my heart forever. Call me stupid for torturing myself but I think to forgive him is just like telling him that, ‘never mind, you hurt me, its ok’.
But honestly, I know in my heart, I am not confident I can find someone to walk with me forever. Even if someone telling me, I will not trust anyone anymore.
So, since I am not going to get married, that could be the reason why I am treating each of my friend’s wedding seriously.
Spending money for dress, shoes, hair-do, make up etc.
Ongki… your family, friends, colleagues love you.
Don’t let them down.
Be yourself again.
我恨你，我爱你，我恨你 我爱你 我恨你 我爱你 我恨你 我爱你 我恨你 我爱你 我恨你。。。
There are five rules that I MUST follow for the rest of the month, in December 2007.
If I break any of these rules, I will not go to Australia to attend Juan’s graduation in May, 2008:
I commit myself on these:
1) Not to be late to office, not later than 9am!
2) Not to sleep later than 1am every night.
3) Do not drink nescafe anymore.
4) Do not eat excessively.
5) DO NOT CHECK ON HIS WEBSITE ANYMORE!!!!!
Stupid me, still crying again! Asking for his pictures when don’t see updates on his website, but when he did, feel pain!
This morning, I had a lot of dreams, its just like many short stories flashing through my mind.
I “saw” many ppl in the dreams, including “him”.
I dreamt that we all are still with CIS, and he just got promoted by V. But I was at my desk, dare not look at him, but feeling so happy for his promotion and then keep checking his website. Haha….what the heck!
I don’t understand, what is dream? why we dream and why we dream so???
And there are a lots more. Even the twin brothers who are my primary schoolmates. “Tan Wei Yew” and “Tan Wei Aun”.
Argh, it’s crazy. No idea what is happening to me. I just want a good sleep during the weekend but my mind never stop thinking.
Recently, I have been busy with life. Worry and pressure at work, playing Wii in the office, going concert, karaoke and dinner with colleagues, feeling ‘beh song’ with some ppl, and of course, the bear who always think I like to smile and that cheers his days. That’s not true, when he gets to know me more, he’ll see many troubles haunting this fat lady behind the shinny smiles.
Erm, but there is one thing that I still do everyday, no matter how busy am I, is to check his website. Hoping to see more of his writings and pictures. I’ll check like, during the day or night. Haha….it has like, became a habit to me liao, just like i need a cup of nescafe every morning, or need to watch tv at night. A norm already.
But its good that at least now I don’t feel pain to do so anymore. My life is going on….so does he….
I read Ruru’s blog, always feel that we are quite alike. But i guess I am way “luckier”, at least my HE don’t drag, cut it off, clear cut, until the blood splashing everywhere, then he just wipe it like never happen in his life at all, leaving me the stupid fei poh to keep dreaming of him now and then. But I know there’s improvement. I know his shadow is slowly fading away…..