Today is my first class. Although I was just sitting in the ‘trial’ class as I haven’t decide on the final subjects to take, but I already feel the tense around. Attending Thomas’s Management of Change….

Well, I would honestly say, I am only able to grab 40% of what he delivered. His speech is too speedy.  Can’t get some of his jokes sometimes. Only when he seriously and clearly delivering the keynote of his slides that I can understand in full. But overall, I am very dissapointed with my own standard! Guess what, all other students are so so so damn fluent in English. With slang somemore! Confident, outspoken, proactive ….. and me? erm….

He was saying we can’t avoid change and unless we are ‘constants’, otherwise change occurs all the times, because we are human, and we need to know how to manage it. I like this idea and now I am experiencing a big change in my life.  He taught us that language can twist on how you respond to change.  When you can’t do something, add 3 letters behind your sentence, and it brings a totally new meaning to your sentence.

“I can’t do it”  ……….change to………. “I can’t do it YET“

This subject does not have exam but there will be a group assignment or presentation and an individual report. And at the end of the class, we already have to select our group members. There were 7 of us, including a lawyer, a HR manager, some foreigners, some IT experts and another IT moron (me loh). And we are suppose to split into two groups but we were all standing there, not knowing what’s the best method to split as we are all new to each other, doesn’t know how to choose.  In the end, someone suggested to flip coins and guess what, we have a draw. Some sort of ‘cabutan bertuah’.

I am in this group with the lawyer, who looks nice and friendly, although not handsome but who cares as long as he can work ., and another full timer young pretty lady, Chrisandra., whom i got to know from Scott that she comes from a rich family and it might be a bad choice to be in the same group as her since she will not be as dedicated as other part timers will do. 

After the class, I had dinner with Scott and he told me many stories of who is rich guy, who is good and who is bad. Never know going to school is this complicated! I’d really underestimated how much commitment do I need to put in to complete this MBA, and the question is, can I really get a pass???

I begin to have doubts. Can i do it YET? Is this the right time for me to do it YET? Will I pass those exames? Never come across my mind, doing an MBA is so much more tougher than a degree!

But no regret, I already started it, and i will try all my best to complete it, maybe not Distinction but at least a PASS!