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Oct

The first class was missed. Actually, I didn’t intend to take up this module this semester, only planned for Strategic Management. But I think I will like Marketing and thinking to attend class without exam. But once entered, I was so into it that I even found a group and marked my attendance. Erm, still thinking whether I should take up, since I am not too satisfied with the group members (most of them are non working). I know to work with non working group members will create a lot of schedule conflicts, just like what happened in Innovation Management last time.

Note that this time I didn’t stick to SCH because I want to be more independent. I didn’t even bother to be in the same group as him. Well, just go our own way. I am thinking to meet more new friends. After all, I paid so much to meet more people and share new experiences.
The professor Dr.Nelson, from Nigeria, I believe. Written many books before. And he is quite funny. Not too much, not too bored. Just nice. The debate of McDonald and McCurry was interesting.

Looking at him gets me reminded me of Danger, my Innovation Management group mate. Wonder how is he doing now. Doesn’t know why, I think this name, “Danger” is really cool.

After about 5 months since the last semester, I was kinda excited to attend classes again. Worrying the lecturer might be those Whites whom I can’t catch up with their English accent, thank god this round is better, at least I can understand Prof. Nelson’s English, although sometimes pronounce ‘Characteristics’ as ‘Karakteristiks’.

Students are a lot, I think should be around 150. The classroom was full. Many new faces although some old boring faces like Tom, Nicholas, Lili were also there. There were quite a number of proactive students but some were just lame asking stupid question. Really lame. (How does financial ability contribute to Marketing strategy?) Duh! No money how to advertise on TV???

Again, although I am much prepared and experienced this semester, I am still lacking confidence, does not dare to speak out loud. I have to keep reminding myself, “hey Ongki, you can do better than them! You did it! Go and do more and better”. I met Ali, the guy who played a great role in my last semester modules. He said I can do Marketing. Injected some confidence in me too. Well, I surely can do better. Want to maintain my straight A’s record.

Category: MBA

Oct

Ongki mengamuk!!!!

ongki

I appreciate and thank MD for giving us his Wii, and even bring back to Thailand for periodical update and kind enough to buy us the new motion plus controllers. I do not know how else to thank him, except by really fully utilizing it to relax after work.

I want everyone else in the office to feel the same. I decided to organize the Wii competition. We have been hosting it for two years in a row. It was fun and can feel the excitement and more interaction between team members. I hope the same this year. But unfortunately, it was a hectic thing for me, because there are almost 40 participants. I have to randomly put people’s name into each team. I ask everyone to register their own name into team but no one is moving, so I have to make the decision.
The time limitation is a constrain. Most interns will not be available starting this week. The game schedule cannot be too long. Everything has to be fast. Everything has to depend one me. Even buying new batteries has to wait for me.

Ok, it’s fine, i don’t mind doing these because I am the one who wishes to have the competition.
But hey! When the team lose, people says unfair cox they don’t get to choose their own team member.
When some team members, like the interns can’t come because they have ended their internship and I allow replacement players, people said it’s not fair. When these people being childish by withdrawing from the game, people says ‘….blame the organizers’. F*CK!!!!

The point is, there is people out there who just want to make my life miserable. I don’t wish them to thank me, but at least be cooperative. My intention of this competition is just for everyone to have fun! Why must it follow strict rules like, losing if player can’t come?? They just want to go against me. Want me to have problem, want me to feel miserable.
Come on, just for fun…as if betting RM1 million game? Only RM10, ok?
I was too angry, and then throw the white board marker pens and eraser on the floor, in front of them.
Long time never been this angry already. Cried. Toilet bowl is my best friend when I cry at work.
At least the bowl give a place for me to sit, as if comforting me. How about those people? None of them giving me supports. All just bully me.

At this moment, he sent me sms, giving me the answer that I was urging him. I call him and upon hearing his voice, I can’t help but to cry again. And that’s how I forgive him again. Aih, he made me cry the night before. Now I cry in front of him because of someone else. Am I meant to just cry?

I think I have to change my personality? Being too kind, wishing to please people is such a difficult thing to do.
To please these people, I will make some other people not happy. To please those people, someone may get offended.

So difficult to be proactive? I want to make things happen. But to make things out of these really very non proactive people, (or people who don’t want to react for me), are as difficult as jumping from a 18 floors building.