Inspired by kennysia.com

Got inspired by this infamous blogger namely, Kenny Sia.

Regretted that my own blog is all about love, love and still love. Nothing really beneficial to myself or reader. But its initially setup to save a copy of memories. And it turned out that my memories are all about failure in love life. So ashame of myself.

Decided to start a brand new day starting from now. Thanks Jun for sending me the link that change my life, or is it too early to say that i will change? Don’t know but its definitely a good motivation for me.

Finally

moved to Pasir Panjang Road

. CY’s house. Everything is perfect and fantastic so far, in fact still excited with this comfortable and nice new home.

I’ve been trying to list the pro and cons of moving from Telok Blangah. Many asked for the reason, I doesn’t really seriously answer them. Well, let me try to list as many as possible:

Pro:

1) Don’t have to worry about doing *big business* and toilet got choked again! yahooooo !!!

2) Don’t have to suffer the dim lightings and hot colors of the wall, furnitures and floor.
3) Don’t have to listen to Peggy(land lady) nags
4) Don’t have to worry she enters my room without permission.
5) Don’t have to use the earphone to listen to music, because there are no sounds of buses passes.
6) Can online 24 hours!!!
7) Can cook without worrying the utensils are antiques
Can board a double decker bus
9) Can feel the cooling air-cond, instead of adjusting the standing fan.
10) Can use a broom to sweep the floor.

Guess these reasons are good enough to explain or justify the extra S$60 for this new place.

22nd Oct, no more sweet 16teen, its 26th!!!

My birthday, happy birthday Ongki. Wishing you good health, good money, good emotion and hopes u regain *yurself*!!!! Be the happy go lucky and cheerful Ongki again!!!

Its over anyway, although it was not a great one, but its definitely one to be remembered….
The clock tickered to the first second of the day, and I was gambling at Genting
Lose RM50 but its actually fun to gamble
I think I am truly a “lan dou kuai”.
Was in Genting with WNS buddies. Well, my first time meeting the key person of WNS, Sherman…quite a difference from my impression on him. But damn, he couldn’t recall who is Elaine Ong!! Grrrr…
Had bak kut teh at Kepong. Reminded me of him everytime going to Kepong.
Met Kwok Siang, got the “Jewel in the Palace” DVD. He’s really my saviour.
Many of my loneliness nights shall be filled now.
I really envy those WNS buddies. They are so close to each other….care for each other…cindy and kenson especially, really funny seeing cindy sarcastically making fun of Kenson for smoking. haha…like mother and son !!

Reached home 3am! And guess what, woke up at 8am to Wai Leng’s place. Luckily Chen gave me a call, else I will definitely miss it.
Met her for the very first time since that sms war. Was very uneasy.
But at least she’s the one who at least offer me a drink first.
But she never really wish me for my birthday. That’s cruel enough
Well, i guess i am demoted to her hi and bye friend. At least still a friend.
I don’t mind, its her choice. I know I am not a good friend. I know….I don’t blame her at all…my heart will always welcome her back to my heart….
JY, feel warm to meet her again.

The next person I wanna meet is Feli. She’s truly a friend of mine who will never hurt me, never dislike me for my bad attitude, never bored with me and always concern about me. Although sometimes she sounded boring to me cox she’s too obssessed with her work…but i am learning to be a good listener. and not only talk about myself, but to listen to others…i tried…i hope i do it good enough.
Went look around for watch…but couldnt see any suitable. Ended up visiting Sasa, trimmed my eyebrow and bought some makeup pieces. Really costly…
But Feli then agree to replace the watch with the makeups. Well…at least it saves me about hundred ringgit.

In the evening, fetched Chen to the dinnner, it was a grand one. I think i dressed my best. But dissapointed with the hair-do. Could be better. Make up all by myself. Proud really…i finally can make up on my own! Very happy for WL..her face shines the happiness. I think i will always remember her cute face when she passed by our table to change her gown. She said, “i am busy, i need to change gown”.
haha, her face is so cute. yeh, she’s always the cutie. too bad a yat not here, else we will have a good reunion of ‘lan tan’ but i guess….its very difficult to have this day in the future…

Both WL and AQ has a bunch of buddies…who has been so helpful, from what i see, photographers, organisers etc.
Was waiting for CK and he did appear, in a very casual attire. But still look good
He’s just charming to me.

Okay, happy things are mentioned. Here comes the disaster story.
Doesn’t know what happened to my family. I thought going back this time will relief everything…but it turned out that, i left the house in anger and sadness.
Doesnt know what happened to father, because of his sickness?
i know i am wrong. but don’t they realise i already tried my best to change?
no they don’t. cox they never know hows my life here in singapore. i have never been this poor, never been this saving. each dollar spent is like cutting my flesh.
thought of giving more $$$ to parents but the situation makes me hate to pay them.
selling avanza and kancil. i don’t wish too, deeply from my heart. I like my avanza.
But he’s selling. And the anger in my mind is telling me that I will never go back KL if not necessary. I don’t want to know what happen to them anymore, I am sick of this money minded family. Enough for me. I don’t care if they don’t bother my life death here in Sg as well. Even if i am dying, i will not wan them to know. ((
Its insane….how father talked to me, how my tears keep rolling down like waterfall everytime they pressurize me on $$$. I am dissapointed, really dissapointed.

Bad lucks … shoo shoo shoo. away from me n family!

Ya, real bad lucks.
Mom admitted to hospital, dad and brother the following week, on the same day.
My family has never been this ‘sui’ before. A real test for all of us and it’s proven that we do really care for each other that much.

I myself is not any good, as my right eye was swollen and got red. Even a light blink cause pain. Went see doctor and very impressed with the professionalism of Sg doctor. Thank god it got healed very quickly.

Yup, all things got better, father starts working, bro resting at home.
I am sure the bad lucks are all gone….waiting for the good one to arrive..

My mom is OK

Thanks to the anonymous who posted the comment.
Yup, my mom’s condition is good so far. Just that she will not be able to walk for 6 weeks, and to struggle with her new *companion*, namely the walking sticks.

As for me, I feel bad cox I am not around to help.
I did many things that I never do before in my lifetime last weekend when i was in KL. I was helping my mom to cook! Can you believe it!!! I am really unfilial.
But as time goes by, its getting more obvious that mom loves me so much more than sis, that sis started to complain. Mom still prepare the mushrooms to cook soup for me! I really salute her, still manage to ‘dung dung dung’ to the kitchen!
And for that, I drank a lot of the soup, until i burbed and felt the soup reaches my throat! haha….

It’s not something unexpected anyway, as sis always make mom angry. But glad that sis never respond negatively to this.
She still helped mom to settle her insurance matters and help out the houseworks.
Sis told me that mom was crying beside father when she was waiting in the hospital for the operation to start. I am so sad to hear, gosh, mom must be really scared…
But again, too bad I am not there…

Aunt ‘Mui’, uncle and cousins came visit mom. They all know the news were because I told Aunt Foong..hehe…
Luckily they came visit, else i will be really dissapointed.
Brian and Brendan are so cute, especially Brian. oh..is it Brian? i got messed up with their names again…his big eyes and blur blur gestures…haha…
And they now each have Brendan fish and Brian fish! haha…

Thats how I spent the Saturday and Sunday, staying at home accompanying mom.
Oh ya, sold my Ferrari shoe to brother. I think he likes it a lot, he was so excited and happy, that he wore it once the shoe belongs to him.
I felt bad cox i am selling to him…should have just give him as a gift…but well, he’s always richer than me…never mind…

It was a fruitful weekend though, i met MungSoon and gf at Carefour, and then Kar Yee on Saturday. On sunday, at KLCC, i bumped into AB and hubby.
And the most surprising event was when i spotted CK on the same bus as I boarded the bus back to SG! I was so nervous…looking at his face only makes me feel like wan to laugh.
It’s really humiliating recalling what I did to him when we were in F6.
He got thinner, smaller size, especially his face shape. And guess what, he’s been working in SG for 3 years already, at Raffles Quay, so near my office.
But i think he’s not as sissy as he used to be. Actually, he’s very ‘si men’, unfair to say that he’s sissy.
I wish he will call me out for drinks sometimes…but don’t think so…haha