Recaps of the series I’ve watched in SG

It’s pretty amazing, a large portion of my time in SG were spent on my notebook watching series

Let me try to list down each of them :

1) TVB Healing Hands III
Bowie sexy, Melissa cool, Benice stubborn, Moses greedy, Lawrence boring, Gigi pretty

2) TVB Revolving doors of Vengeance
never like Ella Koon until finished this series. Ron improved too but can be better.
the ending was crop and crap!

3) KOR Love Story In Harvard
love the couple….obssesed with both the Kim(s). the korean series with most kissing scenes.

4) TW Devil Beside You
love He Jun Xiang!!!

5) TVB Shades of The Truth
Chilam is the best! Gigi really ‘sok’ in it, but really can’t bear with her expression sometimes.

6) TVB Always Ready
Ekin is still the charming one, especially with pretty like Linda.

7) TVB War And Beauty
They all sacrificed for either mother or grandpa or god father…stupid woman!
Please, woman are not born to be on the bed with the king, ok?

TVB War of In Laws
Myolie and Bosco, wish they are real couple!

Special today

1) Am wearing my new G2000 light brown slack, bought at Suntec last weekend at S$23. I think it looks good on me and will be perfect if I’m without my stupid bloody god damn ugly big tummy!
2) Was too obsessesed with Boscolie (Bosco + Myolie) that i was downloading all their clips and got caught by boss.

Jean : “Elaine, are u downloading things? No, aren’t you?”
Pig : “Oh yeah, I am downloading something.(gosh, sure kena whacked)”
Jean : “Oh! you do?!! (shouldn’t have admit since he din expect), can you please stop it? it’s causing the internet to be very slow”
Pig : “Oh…(gotta change face expression to show very guilty)”
Jean : “Ok, it’s causing problem when we launched a sms campaign, next time don’t download during office hours.”
Pig : “ok ok (am leaving soon, no more next time)”

Felt terrible embarassed and guilty. They have been so nice to me, but I didn’t appreciate it
I reached office at 10am, leave at 7pm….but yet they don’t make sound at all…

Doesn’t know why but I feel that today is very weird. Something big and unusual is gonna happen, but it’s not yet. Am waiting….

Suddenly realised I like guys wearing, sorry, handsome guys wearing coat.
  

Last 10 days in SG

Time flies, I did not realise it’s already about 6 months I am in SG, 11 Aug 05 – 27 Jan 06.
I didn’s expect myself to leave this soon anyway.
It’s rather sad actually, I’ll miss a lot of things in SG.

I’ll miss:

1) mee pok – my fav mee, only in SG
2) the yong tau fu in laksa soup
3) tori yaki – the most delicious japanese satay

4) chenyee – she bought me ice-cream!!
5) jean, anotoine, audrey – the coffee kaki
6) jeremy, isabella, leticia – my officemates, the leng lui
7) my cool room in Pasir Panjang

What did I earn?

1) a notebook – should be fully paid by the end of this month
2) dozens of photos
3) met lihan and babies, yuen fah, esther and angeline soo
4) also bumped into chenkee

What I’ll glad its over:

1) the stupid 5 hours journey from SG to KL, and another 5 from KL to SG
2) to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner alone

一定要幸福

淹没在城市里 看不见星星 其實仍在守著你

你有没有信心 你愿不愿意 逆转时间结局

朋友忽然聊起 关于你的消息 原来尘埃已落定

我为你高兴 为自己伤心 好复杂的情绪

过去往往总是过不去 留成現在最痛的印记

左一句 右一句 对不起 你救不了我 我挽不回你

人生有几次的可惜 我想我的眼睛已洩了底

夜深人静 突然想起 一定要幸福 当时的约定

(你一定要幸福) 没忘记(祝福你)

Dream Analysis : “Fight with sharks, snakes all over my body, i’m on wheelchair ? “

Chased

Anything moving toward you in a dream usually signifies that you are becoming more aware of it, feeling it more intensely. So being chased in a dream usually denotes that you are feeling something you fear more intensely and are trying to avoid confronting it. This is not usually a good policy, as you can never get away from yourself.

Animals

Carl Jung said that all wild animals indicate latent affects (feelings and emotions that we do not readily deal with). They are also symbolic of dangers (hurtful and negative things) being “swallowed” by the unconscious. The interpretation of the animal in your dream depends on your relationship with it in daily life. Animals represent the qualities in our character or specific aspects of our personalities. They could symbolize our more intuitive and instinctive parts, or they could serve as messengers for the unconscious. Please look up each animal individually by name

Sharks

Please remember that the water in your dreams may be a statement about your emotions and the unconscious. Sharks, water-dwelling animals, could represent unpleasant emotions or difficult and painful materials coming up from the unconscious. You may feel some emotional upset, and the shark could be the symbol of the perceived emotional danger. Old dream interpretation books say that sharks may represent dishonest friends or reflect financial troubles.

Dolphin

Dolphins represent friendliness, communal living, rescue, communication, and affection. They are water dwelling mammals and in our dreams they represent our willingness and ability to navigate through emotions. They represent positive messages from our unconscious minds. Dolphins could also represent a positive connection between our consciousness and to those parts of the psyche that is a mystery and largely unconscious.

Snake

In some cultures snakes are highly regarded and symbolize the ability to transcend into higher levels of consciousness or into areas of knowledge that exist outside perceived time and space. In the pre-Christian days, snakes were considered symbols of fertility, healing, and nurturing (the healing serpent representing a god). Post Adam and Eve, snakes are often considered symbols of temptation and evil, anger, and envy. Snakes emerging out of the ground may represent your unconscious or repressed materials coming to your conscious mind. Freud thought that the snake was a phallic symbol. It is amazing how many people have snake dreams! Most snake dreams seem to be disturbing and they leave the dreamer feeling anxious and afraid. There are no simple interpretations to the snake dreams. Each dreamer must consider their own situation and all of the details of the dream. Sometimes snakes may be phallic symbols and other times they represent negativity in our lives that hampers our progress and constantly threatens us. In the long run the snake may be a positive symbol; it may represent difficulties that lead us to the center of personality and result in feelings of completeness.

Wheelchair

Some area of your life where you�re impairing, disabling or crippling yourself
Viewing others as incapable of being self-sufficient
Placing yourself in a role of care taking others

God, I pray upon you, please give me the strength

After work, headed to Chinatown.
The route to Chinatown today was weirdly dull. No color, no light, no car, no sound.
It was very cold. I suddenly feel lonely for the first time ever since I am in SG.

Was specifically looking for that shop which sells wedding stuffs. Bought two pair of identical keychains. Doesn’t know for who yet, most probably LS, as award for Best Friend of 2005. Also looking for a bigger wedding gift, the bedsheet looks good. Looks nice and must be comfortable lying on it. But it was $150…

Took bus. The journey was shorter than usual. Entered Cold Storage.
What to buy? What to eat? Sky told me to eat better food.
I grabbed a basket, filled it with my favorites.
I picked a packet of ‘wong nga bak’, eggs, ikan bilis cubes, fishball, fishballs, japanese beancurd and an quarter of watermelon. People say eating sweet stuff will make mood better. Let me try. The watermelon look sweet enough.

Reached home, didn’t take bath. Lazy.
I know its dirty but…give me a break!
I’ve had enough of acting accordingly to logic.

Logic : “u must take bath or else will be very dirty”
Heart : “u are lazy, moreover its cold outside. don’t have to, just remember
to shower tomolo morning will do.”

Cooked a full pot of soup, with everything that was bought. Finished them all.
Very full but doesn’t feel like full…mmm? what the heck?

Life’s so strange, sometimes we can never understand how we feel.
U know you should feel full, obviously u should, with such large pot of stuffs in it!
But, from what u feel realistically, it wasn’t. Why?

You picked up a $100 dollar note. But then the note found it’s owner and left you.
You know it doesn’t belong to you. But at the same time, you have to be happy for the note. Confusing, huh?

Logic : “It’s a great news that it found its owner!!!”
Heart : “But why can’t it be mine???”

Until when do we human has to be struggling with these two entities?
When can they be united?

Chilam @Astro WLT Award Show, 7th Jan 2006

I owe this an entry..coming soon

Thank god for these blessing days

Yes, I feel that god is rewarding me.
First of all, LJ was in SG this morning and Chilam is in KL tomorrow.

Yup, LJ emailed me two weeks back that he’ll be in SG and we even decided to return to KL together on Friday night or Sat morning.
But the day before yesterday he online and told me that he’ll be going back on Friday morning instead! I was furious!
Gosh, that will leave me alone to take the coach in JB on Friday night which I really hate to do so. Moreover, he informed me that last minute.

Well, he called me yesterday, I was a little shocked as I really seldom receive call. He was in SG already. Planned morning breakfast near Clarke Q, 8.30am.
I was excited! Went home, washed my hair, ‘moose’ and blow it with my $9.90 hairdryer. Pick the best looking clothes (make me look thin), but has to be casual and not too obvious that I’m specially dress for him.

The appointment was at 8am which I was very doubt if I can wake up that early, moreover, I was so addicted to the Ekin series, which I promised myself to go bed one after one episode Can’t help it…

And guess what…i slept at about 3am! And my hp alarm did ring at 7am but i switched off and continue to sleep (same old me, never change)!!
At 8.47am, phone rang,

LJ : “where r u? i’m at clarke q already”
Stupid pig : “i’m still at home woh…what time now?”
LJ : “walau eh, its already 8.30am!! we are not eating la, i am going off..”
Stupid pig : “don’t la, don’t la…i am coming la…”
LJ : “what time can u reach?”
Stupid pig : “half an hour?”
LJ : “u ah…never tepati janji one woh…okla, okla…faster come”

Then the stupid pig rushed to the washroom, brushed teeth, washed face, and get changed. ok well…no time for bath and left the house.
Reached Clarke Q at about 40 mins later…getting more excited.

And he was there standing, beside his luggages…in a deep blue shirt, and jeans, casual enough…but strange, how come he’s so handsome today? So physically fit, with a short and good looking hair style! Nah..this is the head prefect that I used to ‘kap’ when we were in F6!!

After that, I couldn’t recall much of what i said, i was lost, as usual.
But i remembered I told him not to be so fierce…he said, “yeah, when I am fierce enough, i can eat people, my ex-gf said that”.
At that moment, my mind flashed back to that scene in F6, at the school canteen where he was yelling at the malay boys who must hv break school rules. I was so attracted to his charismatic or “fierce” face expression! Fierce….haha!

Then we had breakfast at my fav “mee pok” coffee shop.
Strange, it was quite a distance to that place and he was pulling his baggage, and he still manage to talk non-stop!! about how interesting is Laos…”i predict this place will be very popular in 5 years times”. Never ending with his “hao sui doh go cha” (loosely translated as saliva more than tea)…and guess what, he said i really got slim and even touched on my tummy…

I don’t know what word to describe his eating style…except “ugly”!
He used his hand to eat the prawn…and when he eats, he has to talk, so the food inside his mouth sometimes “fly” around

Oh yeah, both us ordered green tea in the can. I couldn’t open mine, as usual again, and i told him to open for me. He laughed at me, i showed him my damn short finger nails…then, this reminded me of PohLi.
Pohli once complimented that I was really independant enough, that I will not even ask ppl around me to open the can! I think I will have my times try not to be independant geh, Pohli dear…

He talks really a lot, i didn’t talk much. He told me the tips of living in China, how to protect myself from the china guys and etc. Boring…haha, I was very ‘fu hin’ but my face expression surely makes him thinks I am very interested…but the fact is, i was only attracted to his gestures, eating style and talking capability.
Bravo really!!!

Then gotta go, he was still talking even crossing the road. He said I lack of confidence woh….told me to walk with chest up and full of confidence.
yeah, i know my weakness, and he really understand me well. i will remember that…

In the end, he gotta take MRT to go JB and I have to go work. It’s 10.10am already.
He said bye bye and lightly hugged me. My chin touched his shoulder. I suddenly felt that I am so tiny with his arms around me. I am so glad to have him as my FRIEND…

UMS fellows aren’t bad at all…

Almost everybody, at least those in my list, put the (f)flower for Nicole.

Nothing much we can do, only a simple way to show we remember her.

Recaps : Ongki in 2005

Jan
- still with NZ.MY
- was in good term with IV and YP.
- We played In-Between, somewhere around CNY. I was very unlucky, lose some money.

- Two days before 1st day of CNY, gathered at AY’s house.
- There were AY, CKY, CCY, MS and I. We played blackjack. Won a David Tao’s CD. AY the big loser.

- Third day of CNY, visited Ipoh. Drove my Avanza, with WB and GE.
- Met HL and stayed at his godparents house. HL family was there too.
- They were celebrating his godmom’s birthday. Almost met his whole family.
- We got to meet others coursemates like AChoy and LS, NC and BH (the first and last time meeting her mom), MA and MH and lastly SC.

- At night, we went to a pub, chit chat and played some games to ‘finish’ up the alcohol.
- CY and I both drunk. She even fell down by the roadside
- I was very unhappy with her presence, they did flirt with each other. I was unhappy and mad but no way to release. I cried…and at the same time, I recalled AD. I think I hate Ipoh.
- I was tired of crying, HL pat on my shoulder and he even did something which I think is quite warm…brotherly act…nothing more than that, just that it’s my first time.
- The last night, before returned to KL, went K with CY’s friends, it was the most torturing night for me. I was hoping to return KL asap. But the fact is nobody realised what was wrong with me.

Feb
- angry with her. did not answer her call. i was mad.
- she did what promised. sent bouquet of *teddy bears* to my office.
- i was not at all happy. anger covered my heart, brain and eyes. (i couldn’t believe i did that!!)
- I chased my friend away.

I blame no one but myself. But at the same time, I couldnt control the bottom of my heart to hate them.

March
- the birth of WLJ 8411.
- the first phase of the “chi9sin” disaster, but survived it.

- started to find a way to “run”.
I promise this is the ending of all…

- it was just the beginning!

Apr
- joined CIS at TPM, a very different environment where all colleagues communicate in Mandarin.

- the sickness of “chi9sin” spreaded from heart, to brain and destroyed thinking system.
- the last phase of the sickness and “certified” as well.
- “chi9sin” = fall for a guy, try to stay away from him but he said he needs u but only as friend, then he angry cox u still chose to go, but when u realised u dun wish to end the friendship, he said NO and turn around to go after your best friend whom u confided in when u were sad.
- the consequence? after work, went to Taman Tasik Permaisuri, felt the feeling of coldness, under the rain for more than 2 hours.
- will never forget the Malay guy who seems to worry so much about my safety, that he accompanied until i finally agreed to go home.

I am lost

May
- 4th – BL gave birth to a boy, Eugene.
- defined GHOST
- was totally dissapointed with him.

June
- the job at CIS was the bussiest ever.
- stationed at CNI. Travelled all the way to Shah Alam every morning.
- worse still, gotta fetch the china guys after they shifted to The Summit, every morning.

- got really close to Sky, Doris, Eunice, David…almost everybody in the CNI office.
- it was like war everyday. work from morning till midnight.
- almost lost all of my friends who called to ask me out and i can only respons by saying i gotta work, even on Sat and Sun.
- 18th – Li San wedding. Spent a lot to get good dress, shoes, makeup, hairdo…everyone were surprised to see me no longer the fatty Ongki.
- glad to see LS happily got married.

July
- got offer from Insync, SG.
- decided to go
- was offered by MsHeng to go China at that time, but i still chose SG

Aug
- first time in SG. was proud of myself. never been this *strong* before.
- settled everything in SG by myself, but of course, there were aunt and chenyee who helped a bit here and there.

Sept
- Was going all fine in SG. Good job, good boss…
- Until the news about mom admitted to hospital for operation on her broken leg.
- Two weeks after, even dad was sicked and admitted to hospital too.
- i was very angry with Sabina, told her that my dad was tired taking care of her kids, but still, nothing she can or want to do.
- not bad enough, the same day, at night, brother’s turn to hospital, involved in accident.
- was worry and keep thinking what’s wrong with my family.
- luckily sister and engkian was there safely, and take care of the family.
- 17th – Huey Jia wedding. The most enjoyable, yet tiring.

Oct
- physical sickness will soon be cured, but mentally sick is dangerous.
- father was behaving strange, even mom were shocked.
- he quarrelled with mom, keep talking about he’s *going* soon and said he prepared everything good enough. said he’s tired working…complaint mom only asking for $$$.
- his words were really cruel, stabbed into my heart.
- even sold my Avanza.
- 22nd – my birthday, wai leng’s wedding.

Nov
- father got well.
- 26th – AiBoon wedding. Bought a Daniel Yam dress at S$125. The most expensive dress I’ve ever bought in my life.

Dec
- 11th – Chilam and Charmaine in KL to promote Astro Awards.
- the happiest day ever.
- Doris invited me to rejoin CIS and based in Beijing.
- After struggling for about a week, i agreed.
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It was a tiring and exciting year.
Family, career, relationship…all changed.

Best Friend of 2005 : LS
Worst Friend of 2005 : GE

Best Company of 2005 : CIS
Worst Company of 2005 : CIS

Best Wedding of 2005 : AB’s
Best Bride of 2005 : HJ
Best Groom of 2005 : AB’s

Ongki Best Dress of 2005 : Daniel Yam, from SG

Best City of 2005 : Singapore
Worst City of 2005 : KL