前女友 – 罗忆诗

祝福全都是真的 和平分开那一刻
一定要幸福 当时我是这样说的

我应该替你快乐 听说她温柔多了
明明不爱了 怎么还以为你是我的

我知道这种想法要不得
你有没有一点点觉得 我还是无可取代的

* 祝你幸福 也祝她快乐 我只剩下这种资格
我不晓得 不甘心什么 该专心当局外者
祝你幸福 也祝她快乐 我只是前女友角色
你不需要负责 我情绪的转折

Where are you, Ongki?

I don’t know. Can someone find her back?
Find back her soul? Find back her life purpose, find back her dignity, find back her pride, and of course find back her SELF!!!!
It is no where to be found now….someone stole it and then dumped somewhere…
These few days, the absense of her soul is so severe that she started to stop meeting ppl.
She does not want to put a smile on her face and greet friends which she normally does very well, not even a fake one. She is terribly sorry for not able to present at the yum cha session called by her friend who is getting married soon.
She is sorry for telling her friend that she’s busy at work when he invited her for dinner.
She does not know what to do. She does not want to meet ppl.
She puts her mind all to her work. She realised, she must do something, or she’ll eventually go insane of weeping and feeling terribly bad for herself. She do coding up to 5am. She will just keep her mind tired, and not to think too much.
She is a girl who thinks a lot, true. And noone knows whats exactly in her mind. No friends really understand her, and keep expecting her to do something that she can never do.
Someone warned her that, she might eventually lost all her friends.
Ongki thinks, maybe…everyone might fed up with her and it’s understandable that nobody likes to mix with negative ppl.
Ongki said, she don’t care. Friends to her, if run away like this, then they are not meant to be her real friend.

我要如何不想他！！！！！！！！！！！！

又哭了。 听着这首歌，“我要如何不想他”。 好难过。
然后又想到要法email给他。
想写‘又念你了，怎么办？？？’

想了又想，我问自己十次，这样做，又有什么用呢？？ 泪会流得开心点吗？？
问自己，这样做，他会开心吗？？？
问自己，为什么还要打扰别人？？？
难道我不想它开心吗？？
难道我口口声声说爱他是假的吗？？？

我到底要怎么办？？？ 我哭得好累哦。
每个晚上，睡觉前，一定会流泪。
哭也不能哭的大声，家人听到了，他们会以为我疯了。
如果该后我真的要搬去一个人处，那我会做什么不可想像的事？？？？

i miss his laughter, i miss his voice, i miss his shadow, i miss his eyes, i miss his kisses, i miss his warmness, i miss my darling!!!!!!

11771554 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

‘果粒橙’。。。思念谁

“果粒橙”。。。突然间，让我体会到，原来是我的错。
我没有好好的珍惜。

你知不知道 思念一个人的滋味
就像喝了一杯冰冷的水
然后用很长很长的时间
一颗一颗流成热泪
你知不知道 寂寞的滋味
寂寞是因为思念谁
你知不知道 痛苦的滋味
痛苦是因为想忘记谁
你知不知道 忘记一个人的滋味
就像欣赏一种残酷的美
然后用很小很小的声音
告诉自己坚强面对

你知不知道 寂寞的滋味
寂寞是因为思念谁
你知不知道 痛苦的滋味
痛苦是因为想忘记谁

杭州 – 在那边生活的人好吗？

杭州，我没去过。 很陌生，却常常在我脑海出现的 ‘梦’。
听说好漂亮。 西湖，荷花都很美。
不知道在那边生活的人是怎么样， 比北京和天津都忙吗？？
空气好吗？？
冬天会比北京冷吗？？
月亮会比北京大吗？？
那边的人说话容易听吗？？
那边的“二锅头” 都那么便宜吗？？
那边有没有， ‘果粒橙’呢？？
那边的人都骑自行车吗？？

在那边生活的人，不知道有没有常常去唱歌，喝酒，跳舞。
在那边生活的马来西亚人，是如何交朋友的呢？？
在那边找到半女，应该没那么寂寞把。

在那边生活的人，是不是很忙？？
blog 都没写了。 忙着过精彩生活吧。
忙着要有自己的家了。

在那边生活的人， 不知道脾气有没有好了。
不知道皮肤 有没有没那么黑了。 有没有胖了点？？？
有没有多笑了。。。？？？
工作， 有没有没那么忙了？？？

心里面有没有真的找到他的幸福了。。。。
那便的人，有想念家吗？？？ 有想起爱他的人吗？？？
有想起他爱过的人吗？？？
有想起 喜欢喝 ‘果粒橙’的女孩吗？？？

你好吗？？？

我在中国最开心的。。。

Fwd: Fw: Fwd: Fw: Star Sign..Which one are you??

Don’t know why suddenly, tiba-tiba, mou duen duen received a lot of forwarded emails about star sign, colors to know about oneself. But surprisingly, all is quite true….especially the below,

LIBRA – The Harmonizer
Nice to everyone they meet. Can’t make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.

Birthday Colours – October 14th – October 23rd
Silver
You are imaginative and shy, but you like trying new things. You like to challenge yourself. You learn things easily, and like “Hard to get”. Your love life is normally hard and confusing.

…..like “Hard to get”. —->> this is what we call LO LI JIN

Trip to Perhentian, Redang, Lang Tengah

It’s been quite a while since I go to beach. The last time should be to Pulau Pangkor, last year.
But not sure why, this trip really made me fall in love with the sea so much.
I have such a strong desire to quit my job, and live my life by the beach.
I told CKY aloud that, I found my dream job!
Yes, to be able to stay by the beach, be a dive master, run a small business, maybe own few speedboats or selling pan mee, or better still, work as a freelance programmer.
It does not sound difficult to achieve, its just about how to deal with the current commitments.
How about my condo? Will my income still be that stable being just in the island?
How about family? Can I be away from them? Can I give good life to my parents when they get really old later? Erm….
But hey, look at these pictures, its really attractive…

Pulau Redang

Pulau Perhentian

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Sufiah Yusof – poor girl

I think she is just the poorest girl in the world despite the fact that she earns few thousand pounds a day for having a career of being man’s sex toy. Yes, I have few pounds in my piggy bank, just £5 and its equivalent to RM5x7=RM35. That’s a lot to me, and of course to earn £130 per hour is amazingly a huge figure. But what does pound means when your money is earned by given by men for your ability to satisfy them sexually, and sex is invented by god not for this god damn purpose of earning money! I think she is just brain-damaged, but I don’t blame her, can only blame on her parents for mistreating her as a mental prisoner who in fact is a genious who has huge potential as a successful human in this world.
Okay, enough with my scoldings but damn it, reading the news about how bragging she is in her interview with the UK media about her so called saintful-job is making me sick, just sick!

Phew….Sufiah Yusof, a Malaysian born girl who got into Oxford University at the age of 13, being discovered to be a prostitute in London. She confessed in an interview that she actually “likes” her job!
Looking at her speaking in the interview, she sounded really polite, soft and indeed a sweet lady. Who could have imagine, her brain is damaged?!!!!

No eye see, duh…………… http://youtube.com/watch?v=Q1evA-u8DzM

恋爱症候群

(Spoken Introduction)
Many experts tell me, to use a rational mindset to conduct love affairs
I often think, that these experts, have probably never fallen in love.
Don’t believe, try it, how can you be rational when you’re in love?
I think, it’s probably false.

关于恋爱症候群的发生原因
至今仍然是最大的一个谜
Regarding the cause of the Epidemic of Live, it is still a mystery to this date

不管性别年龄职业体重学历长相和血型
没有一个人可以免疫
Regardless of gender, age, job, weight, qualifications, looks or blood type,
Nobody can be immunized against it.

有些专家学者研究后相信
恋爱是内分泌失调所引起
却有别人认为恋爱属于滤过性簿
象感冒无药可救但会自动痊愈
Some experts and scholars believe, that love is the result of an imbalance in body humours,
and others believe that it’s like a virus,
Like the Flu, there’s no effective medicine but it’ll be cured by itself.

不管你同不同意
自古到今许多例子证明
恋爱不但是一种病态
它还可能是一种变态
Whether you agree or not, all through history, till to date, there are many examples to prove,
That love is not only a sickness, it might even be something of a fetish(perversion).

一般发病后的初期反应
会开始是改变一些生活习性
Usually when one is hit by the sickness, the initial stages include a change in lifestyle.

洗澡洗得特别干净
刷牙刷得特别用力
半夜突然爬起来 弹钢琴
One bathes extra clean, brushes his teeth extra hard,
and suddenly wakes up to play the piano at midnight.

有人每天站在阳台对路人傻笑
有人突然疯疯癫癫突然很安静
有人一脸痴呆对折镜子咬着指甲打喷嚏
有人对小狗骂三字经
Some people would stand at the balcony and grin silly at passer-bys
Some will suddenly be manic, suddenly be very calm
Some get a spastic expression, and look at the mirror biting their nails and sneeze
Some start cursing little dogs.

女人突然改变发型
男人开始每天练着哑铃
食欲不振歇斯底里四肢萎缩神经过敏发抖抽筋
都出现在这时期
Gals suddenly change their hairstyle, guys start pressing dumbbells every day,
Appetite constantly fluctuates, muscle spasms, hypersensitivity,
trembling and craps all happen during this time.

随着病情越来越变本加厉
人会变得格外敏感和恶心
写的说的唱的都想天才诗人一般才华洋溢
越肉麻越饿觉得有趣
As the symtomns start getting worse,
people start becoming extremely sensitive, brave and even disgusting
writing, speaking, singing with as much flair as the geniuses and poets,
the more lovey-dovey the better.

有人恋爱之后每天躲在厕所哭泣
有人开记者会宣布恋爱的消息
有人总是喜欢两个人躲在黑漆漆的地方
象做了不可告人的事情
Some people, after love, hide in the toilet and cry everyday,
some organize a press conference and announce their love,
and some like to hide in dark places in a couple,
like they have done something unspeakable.

每天忙着找人算命
挖空心思改变自己配合对方的习性
把每天都当作纪念日
把自己当作纪念品
每天漫无目的腻在一起
言不及义也觉得好有趣
走着坐着躺着趴着都形影不离
象是两人三脚又象连体婴
Every day looking for fortune tellers, start thinking of ways to change themselves to fit the other’s habits,
Treating every day as an anniversary, and themselves as the present.
Sticking by each other every day for no particular reason,
it’s interesting even when they’re not talking.
Walking, sitting, lying face up or down, they’re never out of each other’s sight,
just like they’re in a 3 legged race, or siamese twins.

心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你
也不管家里米缸有没有米
也不管路上有人示威抗议
只管爱你
All I’m thinking about is to love you, love you, love you.
I don’t care if there’s rice in the rice-bin at home.
I don’t care if there are people protesting or rioting in the streets,
I only care about loving you.

心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你
也不管海峡两岸统一问题
也不管衣索匹亚多少难民
只管爱你
All I’m thinking about is to love you, love you, love you,
I don’t care about the unification of Taiwan and China,
don’t care about the number of refuges in Ethiopia
I just care about loving you.

经过一段轰轰烈烈热恋时期
不久就会渐渐开始痊愈
After a tummultuous period, soon, one starts to recover.

两人开始互相厌倦
互相攻击对方缺点
所有甜蜜都随风而去
The two people start to get bored with each other, start to attack each other’s weaknesses,
All the sweetness is gone with the wind.

然后开始从错觉和误解中清醒
惊讶自己为何如此不聪明
And then it’s waking up from misunderstandings and hallucinations,
and being surprised at oneself how silly he can be.

为了爱情不管一切
不顾父母朋友姐妹兄弟
开始感到后悔不已
Ditching everything because of love, not caring about family, friends, brothers and sisters,
and feeling remorseful about it.

然后开始感到疲惫沉闷气喘心悸牙痛头痛梦呓
然后是精神不济瞳孔放大脾气暴躁四肢麻痹
And then after that is tiredness, frustration, sighing, heartworn, headaches, teethaches and nightmares,
And THEN it’s mental instability, nostrils flaring, short tempers , numb limbs

终于受不了要分离
Finally can’t take it anymore, and break up.

虽然结果颇令人伤心
And although the ending may be rather sad,

了解之后也没什么了不起
After you understand it, there’s nothing really fantastic about it.

爱情终究是握不住的云
Love eventually is like a cloud, uncatchable,

只是我想要告诉你
And I just want to tell you…

在我落寞的岁月里
你的温柔解脱我的孤寂
带给我深深的狂喜
如此颤动我的心灵
In the times when I’m alone, your gentleness unravels my lonliness.
Brings me deep, mad joy, and touches my heart.

轻轻诉说爱你爱你爱你爱你
And I gently whisper, I love you, love you, love you,

不管是黑夜或是黎明
No matter whether it’s dusk or dawn,

不管是梦中还是清醒
No matter whether it’s in dreams or awake, I love you deeply.

深深爱你
多么幸福
让我遇见你呜……
我要对你诉说爱你爱你爱你爱你
How fortunate I am, to have met you…