Disneyland….

This afternoon went to our travel client’s office for a presentation on Hong Kong Disneyland product.
The presenter was a HK lady who sounds so melodious in her HK slang of cantonese. Love it…
As if watching TVB dramas.
She was presenting on the packages available from Disney. Hotel, tours, coupons…
Although it looks attractive and so much fun, but I am really not interested.
That make sense coz I never like cartoons
I never like to go cinema for cartoons.
Disney characters….erm, maybe Winnie the Pooh or Mulan…
But I will not have any feeling if Winnie is accompanying me for breakfast…
Urrrgh….guess I will not be visiting HK any soon…

Fei Fei’s Wedding

Went salon and the make up gal turned me as if am attending halloween party rather than a wedding dinner.
Did a ‘smoky eyes’ on me. I think it’s cool, just that its not the right occassion for this…

I am now officially the only unmarried among my housemates at UMS. Remains single.
Luckily, am not the oldest, CF still ranks higher than me in the ‘critical’ zone.
However, the guys already made fun of me. God, why? why me???
Shouldn’t have snatched the single room of the house at that time…:(
Haha….

Someone must have think, the bride can get a ‘better’ one.
But I think the groom must have special inner beauty that attracts FF, coz I trust FF has very unique and good taste. I trust her.

See some lazy pictures that I captured. Totally not in the mood to snap pictures when KS’s EOS 400D was around

My facebook baby

Introducing “Hunki”…
Made By: You
Birthday: June 18
Age Level: Preschool

Please care for my baby.

The secret revealed…

Finally boss told me the ‘secret’.
It is the most unexpected secret or surprise I’ve ever had as far as I can remember.
I have thousand of questions in my mind, but didn’t bother to ask anymore.
What’s the point of asking? In fact, if I can choose, I’d rather boss not to reveal to me at all.
But I am really curious… curious to know why did he appear.
Boss said I can deserve better, but that’s because he does not know him well.
Or should I say, I do not know him well too, I am just too obsessed with the qualities that I admire in him.

Since we started the relationship, many ppl did many things behind him and I.
Be it the good or the bad deeds, I never ask for it at all.
Those who hurt me intentionally, those who tried to protect me….so many ppl involved.
And i can’t believe, up to now, there is still someone out there doing something because of this dead relationship.
I appreciate all the things that everyone did because of me. I am fine. Thank you.
Everyone said he turned on to a new life, and why can’t I?
Because I am lost.
I am still figuring hard and asking myself again and again, why can’t I live better than he does?

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人生

kam tin lou ban suet tik mui yat gui suet wa dou hou chi hei dou kong gan ngo gam.
bui zek kuat lok. kong gan ngo mut yao lou lik.
kong gan ngo bei ‘pamper’. kong gan ngo ‘pamper’ yan.
hou kik sam.

wei sam moh, wei sam moh kui dei ng meng bak…
ngo yi wei dai ga yao gung tung muk biu,
bet guo kam yat, ngo gok dak, ngo yat hoi chi zao ng yin goi hei dou.
gan jik hei leong chung sai gai tik yan.
dan ngo bet yiu yeng shu. ngo yat ding yiu yeng.
zi hui sing gung, bet hui zoi set bai.
sam fei seong nan guo, set mong, dan ngo bet wui fong hei.

人生不就是这样吗，苦苦爱乐， 甜酸苦辣。
不要再浪费时间，证明自己把。。。

Prove this!

Now is better than later.
Later is better than never.
Organized is better than messy.
Big things are composed by smaller things.
Smaller things are done by action.
Think like a person of action.
Act like a person of thought.
The beginning is half of every action.
The longest journey starts with the first step.
Everything should be made as simple as possible.
But not simpler.
Celebrate any progress.
Don’t wait to get perfect.
Deadlines and stress are a part of life.

Dream

Dreamt of HIM last night.
It’s amazing coz the dream doesn’t make sense at all.
What I remember is, HE IS EVERYWHERE in the dream.

你去了哪里？？？ 我好像好想你哦。。。

你不来了。你也不再写了。
可是我还是每天在想起你。
和别的男生聊天都有说起你。
可是都没人再要听我说起以往的事了。

我第一次对人透露了你的名字。
感觉还好。虽然看到这名字还是苦苦的。
我觉得我快要康复了。好事吧。

七月二号快到了。
那天的七月二号。。。过了两年。
还是没忘记那天的感觉，那天的兴奋，那天的热情，那天的温柔，那天的你。。。那天的我。
我今年还是想等你的。
你会来吗？百痴都知道你不会出现拉。 可是我还是想。。。深深的心理面，还是爱你。。。

My Way

Gary Chaw’s rendering of My Way, originally by Frank Sinatra

And now, the end is near
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I’ll say it clear
I’ll state my case, of which I’m certain
I’ve lived a life that’s full
I’ve traveled each and every highway
But more, much more than this
I did it my way

Regrets, I’ve had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course
Each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this
I did it my way

Yes, there were times I’m sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall
And did it my way

I’ve loved, I’ve laughed and cried
I’ve had my fill my share of losing
And now, as tears subside
I find it all so amusing
To think I did all that
And may I say – not in a shy way
“No, oh no not me”
I did it my way

For what is a girl, what has she got?
If not herself, then she has naught
To say the things She truly feels
And not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows
I did it my way
yes，it was my way

I am a special girl….

Today, I put my Chilam’s picture as my google talk display picture.
Some colleagues asked me who is that.
I jokingly said, he’s my prince charming….
I never think anyone would believe until one of them, who actually asked me in person,
“so how did you meet him?”
I was, ‘huh! omg, he does believe it. But how could he don’t know who is CHI LAM????!!!!’.
He asked if my prince charming is “eatable”.
I asked, what do you mean by “eatable” ???
He said, ‘is he available? single? is he married?’.
I was kinda puzzled. Coz I was wondering how did he know that I am recently in an 暧昧(ambiguous) “friendship” with a guy who has a gf already?
Maybe I am too sensitive or, am I guilty??
‘Siapa makan cili, dialah rasa pedas’…..erm…..
I didn’t seriously answer, i just said, ‘as long as he’s handsome’….haha…

But not long after, I questioned myself, what am I up to?
Being a ‘bitch’ ????
The ‘Bitch” story, is all about my friend’s sister whose bf actually flirts with her sister’s colleague.
I was the one, full of rage, swearing about how unfaithful the guy was, cursed the girl…saying she is such a BITCH…..

I am not sure how close am I to be a bitch but i really wanna make sure I am not!
I will never hurt my friend, yes, his gf is also my friend. At least we took a lot of pictures before and she has been very friendly to me.
Since long time ago, my very first principle is that, I never set an eye on people’s boyfriend.
I will never take other’s possession. 不是我的东西，我不要。
And I did..I set a clear line with that guy.
Actually, I do like this guy, but I guess just ‘like’.
To like someone is just as easy as sharing laughter, joking or even admiring each others.
But to love, is a different matter.
It takes a lot of courage and efforts to start a relationship.
I believe he is really meant for his gf.

As for myself, I really don’t have the confidence to be able to find someone who is meant for me.
I thought I found, only to know that, it’s just a mistake
I dare not try anymore…I can’t be hurt ah, too fragile…

Last weekend, attended two wedding ceremonies in one day.
Morning was the ‘chut mun’ session for my schoolmate, Poh Li and her hubby, Joe.

Yay! I’ve got my wife already!!!

At night, attended Soon, my manager’s wedding dinner.

“Glad I found you”

I have a feeling, I will never have my own wedding.
Could that explain why I am especially excited and cherish for attending friend’s wedding?
Just too bad my sister’s wedding was cancelled, else, I would have take it as my own’s

Life….is such a dilemma. Remember there was an evening, when I was in the office.
I asked a colleague, ‘why still in office? no need go dating???’
She said, ‘how bout u?’
I said, ‘ah…don’t have woh. dunno why also, but don’t have also nevermind.’
She said, ‘Don’t think like that. Must think that you want it, then one day, u will really get what u wish everyday’. She then told me to draw my ‘What I want my future to be’.
Surprisingly, I was so honest to her, I drew, ‘I wish to get married before 30′.
Erm….yeah, I really wish but scared to think too much.

Dilemma, you want something but you scared.
I scared, when god give me something, he will take away my another thing.
I have very good things around me now. Lovely friends, healthy parents, siblings, good colleagues, can eat, can walk, can run….
I don’t wish to lose any of it.
When I was in a relationship, I thought I have the world…
But when I was out of the relationship, I do not have even myself!
I must thank the guy who hurt me before.
He taught me, never ever over-estimate or under-estimate myself.
I am truly a girl, who is “special”….