天下沒不散之宴席

Have I told u guys lately that, I am kinda obsessed with my fellow intern colleagues?
It was crazy as of how much time I spent with them, even during weekends.
I don’t remember how long didn’t I go home for dinner. Almost every night having dinner with them.
For about two months, I’ve been enjoying my work, with the presence of a bunch of interns in the office.
We gossips, chat, talk craps, talk dirty, laugh, eat…and we have had many expensive meals together.
And most of all, it was fun! It brought me a lot, a lot, a lot of laughters.

But, as Chinese saying goes, 天下沒不散之宴席 (there is no never ending banquet), they’ll be leaving the company and go back to their school very soon.
Its amazing, how much chemistry and laughters we shared.
Another two more working days, the KTAR boys and girl will be leaving me
Another two more weeks, my beloved MMU boys are going to say bye bye too.

It was obvious to everyone how sad am I to see them leaving (and they are not even leaving yet, few days more).
Today, unsure what really triggered me, maybe a series of not so good news, I broke into tears in the office.
After they sensed something was wrong with me, the interns were so panic of what happened to their lao-cha-boh and had non stop showing concern for me. Asking here and there for what’s wrong with me. Well, I can’t help but i have put my goggle talk message, like these,

“没有你们的日子我怎样过？？？”
“想哭，想哭，很想哭！！！ 哭哭哭哭哭哭哭哭！！！！！！！！”

Honestly, 想哭， 是应为我不舍得你们啊。。。

botak, “hey, why so down!!?? why? what happen??”

chua, “I know I’m bony…N I sound like I’m kidding but I’m saying this seriously…do U need a shoulder? U ok?”

allen, “cuz like ur status…..你是最好的。。。你知道吗？”
(pass me a sugus stick plus a note written, “Don’t cry, that somebody will be beside u”)

a lui, “leng lui jie jie……..izzit smtg happen to u???, sorry about that ..jz now they called u the “…….” really sorry”

so sweet of them, you say la, how can I not miss these guys???? bet wong ngo gam sek kui dei.

Anyway, I realized, not much time to sad already. Must treasure the times left to be with them.
Tomorrow, we are going Jogoya, on Friday, we are going karaoke.

Erm, here’s some hilarious pics of them…

Hwe Sinn aka my ‘ah lui’ + Zhi Chai aka Bang Sai King – don’t they look like brother and sister?

Kar Wei aka Zim Zui – acting cool

My best friends, Allen + Kenny aka Botak

All of em

Not sure if it’s because I have got older and started to feel loneliness.
I am very scared, without these guys, I will be very lonely

I am E.N.F.P

I am not sure how many times I wrote about resignation in this blog, but its really many that I lost track already.
Today I gave a simple scenario of why I need to change.
I said, I am born and accustomed to the weather as in Malaysia, warm all year long.
Then suddenly I am in the igloo.
I may not be suffering but I am not comfortable or I am not at my best being in a winter place.
I am thinking, if I can afford a choice to go somewhere else so that I can freely move and survive to achieve something more, why don’t I do that?
It might be a risky decision, but from my experience of changing employers, I think it worth to explore and find the best that suited me the most. And of course, I am really tired of changing job, changing environment, changing colleagues, and of course changing bosses!
I just told other colleagues about the best boss I’ve ever had.
But too bad, I have to face the reality that I am not meant to be with them.

One of the best thing I learned from the company is understanding myself.
MD introduced the power of brain types to us. We did the test and I am definitely in the E.N.F.P. type.

Extraversion: 18 %                      Introversion: 8 %
Sensing : 2 %                                 Intuition : 23 %
Thinking : 3 %                               Feeling : 21 %
Judging : 11 %                               Perceptive : 15 %

FCAR / ENFP “Motivator”

Warmly enthusiastic, high-spirited, ingenious, imaginative. Able to do almost anything that interests you. Quick with a solution for any difficulty and ready to help anyone with a problem. Often rely on your ability to improvise instead of preparing in advance. Can usually find compelling reasons for whatever you want.

You relate more easily to the outer world of people and things than to the inner world of ideas. You like variety and action, are often good at greeting people, are often impatient with long slow jobs, often act quickly sometimes without thinking, like to have people around, usually communicate freely.

You would rather look for possibilities and relationships than work with known facts. You like solving new problems, dislike doing the same thing repeatedly, enjoy learning a new skill more than using it, work in bursts of energy powered by enthusiasm with slack periods in between, reach a conclusion quickly, are impatient with routine details.

You base your judgments more on personal values than on impersonal analysis and logic. You tend to be very aware of other people and your feelings, enjoy pleasing people even in unimportant things, dislike telling people unpleasant things, tend to be sympathetic, like harmony.

You like a flexible, spontaneous way of life better than a planned, decided, orderly way. You adapt well to changing situations, do not mind leaving things open for alterations, may have trouble making decisions, may start too many projects and have difficulty in finishing them.

* * * Some Vocational Implications Of Your Personality Preferences * * *

You focus your attention on possibilities and handle them with personal
warmth, thus you tend to become enthusiastic and insightful and find scope
for your abilities in understanding and communicating with people. For
example: Behavioral science, research, literature and art, teaching.

 

Nothing can be as true as this truth !!!

Some ppl reading this might think, this is just another physcological or those forwarded email self test but this is not. I always think, human’s brain is not something we can measure. Human’s brain is not something we can analyse but I guess the brain type tests concluded well on me.

Every point fits in perfectly….this also explains why I am not suitable in the company maybe

Bye bye my dream….bye bye my dream guy…

Dear my dream guy,

I cannot hang the keychain with your name on my bag anymore.
I cannot put all my web passwords with your name anymore.
I cannot miss you anymore.
I cannot admire you anymore.
I cannot wish to visit you at Sydney anymore.
I cannot wish to be your wife and be taken care by you anymore.
I cannot wish to have a family with you anymore.

Sincerely hoping you and wife will lead a wonderful life ahead. You guys surely will.
You are just perfect in my eyes and smart in managing your life.

I will be happy because you are the happiest man on earth!

Fire Within!!!!!

Call me a perfectionist…
call me someone who easily gives up….
call me stupid….
call me baka….
call me idiot….
call me don’t learn…
call me don’t grow…
call me a failure…

I am like this. When I am happy, I am happy.
When I am not happy, nothing works for me.
When nothing works for me, I work for nothing except myself.

To achieve tomorrow

1. Reach office at 8am – to prepare un-prepared task arrangements, PROACTIVE
2. Work on time, with speed, full concentration, PUT FIRST THING FIRST
3. Target to finish the task 1 of at least 50% done BEGIN WITH END IN MIND
4. Spend less time hi hi ha ha in the office.

Finally….

Call me ‘hou lien’ but if I like something, or when I am really into something, I will try again and again to make it happen…I don’t like to be challenged. And challenges motivates me!

Everyday is a happy day, except when I get scolded :P

Recently I am very happy, too happy that I feel as if I am flying.
To emotional fly means emotionally without “weight”.
Without “weight” means no worries, no cries, no fear and it’s all laughter.
I was “laughing” too loud that I forgot I have my duties to fulfill as an employee of my boss.
I started to neglect my tasks.
I believe so that, it is the task that didn’t attract me more than the laughter and fun times I shared with my fellow colleagues.
To work on the tasks has too many restrictions, not something I can do by just doing what I want to do. In fact, I don’t know how to do
I dislike my task, but it is a challenge that I need to face and overcome by hook or by crook because I am sure I gonna lose my job if I didn’t make it happen.
In fact, I am almost displeasing every bosses for delayed time line, no work output etc.
I don’t want to give excuses because I learn that, I am responsible for all the actions taken by myself.
But to laugh with colleagues, to laugh out loud has no limitation, no border and I can do that as much and as free as I wish too.

Today got whacked again by manager. I am not sure what is the bottleneck, could it be I am too stupid as there must be disagreements here and there.
I heard someone told me to see from different angles.
I heard someone told me not to be a perfectionist. See from different perspectives.
Fine, I will do what I am expected to do.
There are many times I feel like want to give up again and started to sing ‘好心一早放开我….’.
Colleagues will start laughing again and asked, ‘what happened?’
I can only sigh and keep singing…. ‘好心一早放开我…..’

Oh yeah, I have a new nickname ‘lao cha bo’, means ‘old lady’ in hokkien.
I am in fact totally out of the age range among my colleagues who ranges from 21 to 26.
I don’t mind about them making fun of me with my age, because I always believe it’s possible that my heart is younger than them!

During the Malacca company trip, I was like a 12 years old gal, playing the swing and see-saw, and then splashing waters to each other.
I think it has been very very very long time ago since I had been this happy, wild and crazy.
There are many more to narrate about the Malacca trip, next post maybe, cox i need to go bed now, and start a new fresh and efficient day tomorrow!

Oh yes, finally after so many years, I received LJ’s wedding invitation.
At that time when I was crazily admiring him, I think in Form 6, at the age of 18, I asked myself a question, what should I do if he’s getting married one day later?
Now its like, 10 years away, and it is now a day that I must face upon.
Sad? Not really, just feeling a bit of ‘life-is-like-this-la’ symptom.
And, suddenly feel an emptiness in my heart. As if I am forced to remove something stuffed in my heart cox it should not be there anymore.
And I have nothing to replace it