雨过天晴了 – After Gloom Comes Brightness

Settled already. No need B.U.
Now we got agreement on hand. At least next time fight, we got a limit.

雨过天晴 (雨過天晴)
[yǔguòtiānqíng]

1. the sun shines again after the rain—after gloom comes brightness

taken from nciku

Protected: 分手快乐 – Happy Breaking Up

MBA – Marketing Class #1

The first class was missed. Actually, I didn’t intend to take up this module this semester, only planned for Strategic Management. But I think I will like Marketing and thinking to attend class without exam. But once entered, I was so into it that I even found a group and marked my attendance. Erm, still thinking whether I should take up, since I am not too satisfied with the group members (most of them are non working). I know to work with non working group members will create a lot of schedule conflicts, just like what happened in Innovation Management last time.

Note that this time I didn’t stick to SCH because I want to be more independent. I didn’t even bother to be in the same group as him. Well, just go our own way. I am thinking to meet more new friends. After all, I paid so much to meet more people and share new experiences.
The professor Dr.Nelson, from Nigeria, I believe. Written many books before. And he is quite funny. Not too much, not too bored. Just nice. The debate of McDonald and McCurry was interesting.

Looking at him gets me reminded me of Danger, my Innovation Management group mate. Wonder how is he doing now. Doesn’t know why, I think this name, “Danger” is really cool.

After about 5 months since the last semester, I was kinda excited to attend classes again. Worrying the lecturer might be those Whites whom I can’t catch up with their English accent, thank god this round is better, at least I can understand Prof. Nelson’s English, although sometimes pronounce ‘Characteristics’ as ‘Karakteristiks’.

Students are a lot, I think should be around 150. The classroom was full. Many new faces although some old boring faces like Tom, Nicholas, Lili were also there. There were quite a number of proactive students but some were just lame asking stupid question. Really lame. (How does financial ability contribute to Marketing strategy?) Duh! No money how to advertise on TV???

Again, although I am much prepared and experienced this semester, I am still lacking confidence, does not dare to speak out loud. I have to keep reminding myself, “hey Ongki, you can do better than them! You did it! Go and do more and better”. I met Ali, the guy who played a great role in my last semester modules. He said I can do Marketing. Injected some confidence in me too. Well, I surely can do better. Want to maintain my straight A’s record.

Ongki mengamuk!!!!

I appreciate and thank MD for giving us his Wii, and even bring back to Thailand for periodical update and kind enough to buy us the new motion plus controllers. I do not know how else to thank him, except by really fully utilizing it to relax after work.

I want everyone else in the office to feel the same. I decided to organize the Wii competition. We have been hosting it for two years in a row. It was fun and can feel the excitement and more interaction between team members. I hope the same this year. But unfortunately, it was a hectic thing for me, because there are almost 40 participants. I have to randomly put people’s name into each team. I ask everyone to register their own name into team but no one is moving, so I have to make the decision.
The time limitation is a constrain. Most interns will not be available starting this week. The game schedule cannot be too long. Everything has to be fast. Everything has to depend one me. Even buying new batteries has to wait for me.

Ok, it’s fine, i don’t mind doing these because I am the one who wishes to have the competition.
But hey! When the team lose, people says unfair cox they don’t get to choose their own team member.
When some team members, like the interns can’t come because they have ended their internship and I allow replacement players, people said it’s not fair. When these people being childish by withdrawing from the game, people says ‘….blame the organizers’. F*CK!!!!

The point is, there is people out there who just want to make my life miserable. I don’t wish them to thank me, but at least be cooperative. My intention of this competition is just for everyone to have fun! Why must it follow strict rules like, losing if player can’t come?? They just want to go against me. Want me to have problem, want me to feel miserable.
Come on, just for fun…as if betting RM1 million game? Only RM10, ok?
I was too angry, and then throw the white board marker pens and eraser on the floor, in front of them.
Long time never been this angry already. Cried. Toilet bowl is my best friend when I cry at work.
At least the bowl give a place for me to sit, as if comforting me. How about those people? None of them giving me supports. All just bully me.

At this moment, he sent me sms, giving me the answer that I was urging him. I call him and upon hearing his voice, I can’t help but to cry again. And that’s how I forgive him again. Aih, he made me cry the night before. Now I cry in front of him because of someone else. Am I meant to just cry?

I think I have to change my personality? Being too kind, wishing to please people is such a difficult thing to do.
To please these people, I will make some other people not happy. To please those people, someone may get offended.

So difficult to be proactive? I want to make things happen. But to make things out of these really very non proactive people, (or people who don’t want to react for me), are as difficult as jumping from a 18 floors building.

Disaster #2

The first disaster happened for the first time about 6 months back. I can’t believe the very same disaster will happen twice. Did I over-estimated myself? or under-estimated the other party? or equally over-estimated him?
I thought he can and already handled. I leave it to him to “do something” but it didn’t work too well.
Feel my heart bleeding and I wish to give up
I am angry, sad and dissapointed, not because he failed me but I failed myself.
I failed to make him mine 100%. I am that type of girl who can’t accept 99%. It must and have to be 100%.
And now, what should I do??????

I Go – Aizat

A very nice song, from Talentime. Local production. I love especially the er-hu effect at the middle.
Brilliant compose!

So long, fare thee well
The dancer and the dancing days have taken leave and fell
So turn down this bed of stone
Quench me with the deadly nightshade from the rose that you belong

The long December rain is falling now
Running down on streets to nowhere
Music is my life you’re my sweetest nightingale
But I can’t hear it here no more
And I go
I go

Hush now, don’t shake or break
Words have fallen silent like soldiers to the grave
No matter what they do or say
Lay me on the sleepy meadow by the tracks upon your face

Movie #12 with him – UP

#12 UP (Cartoon), **** 4 stars (worth my time)

I heard from almost everyone that this movie is good. We have been trying to get ticket few times but was disappointed. This evening however, we made it! Although my mood wasn’t that good, but the movie made me laugh so much. It is very meaningful.
After the movie, we had short discussion, I said, ‘…do not let go off your dream’. I also said, ‘..it’s not really the ending whether he can fulfill his -crossed-heart promise that matters, it’s the process that means, which explains the scene where Mr.Fred flips the Adventure book and realized his wife puts the lovely pictures of them together. We both agree this is the most touching scene of all.
I learnt this phrase,

Cross One’s Heart – If you say something from the heart or from the bottom of your heart, you sincerely mean what you say.

Movie #11 with him – Tsunami

#11 Tsunami (Korea), *** 3 stars (can be better)

The most expensive movie ever watched so far. At GSC Signature, The Gardens, with his brother.
RM20 per ticket. 3 of us, cost him RM60! for a 3 stars movie! lol

I was kinda dissapointed because I am expecting something more than this. They could have emphasis more on the disaster itself. But it’s not too bad, the mega waves showed on screen did amuse me.
I couldn’t stop myself from imagining the actual disaster that happened at Acheh in 2004.

There were few scenes where I have dropped tears. And I took this opportunity to lie on his chest and silently cried. He didn’t know, but I think he already calmed me. My mind was thinking about An Qi, actually.

Movie #10 with him – Where Got Ghost

#10 Where Got Ghost(Singapore), * 1 star (one of the most pa-lia horror movie, it’s the last story about the ‘mother’ that gains the only star(*)

Got watch ‘Money Not Enough’ or not? This is the same director, Jack Neo’s work.
Erm, it’s a mixture of comedy and horror. Not much horror but it keeps emphasizing on the Singaporean’s Singlish that tickles me and I believe most of the audience.
‘…next time don’t steal my “olen”‘…..adui…

The last story about the three baka son on Money Not Enough appears again, with their mother spirit causing a lot of chaos to them, only to realize at the end that she is indeed blessing them by protecting their health and safety.

He and I both regret chose to watch this over ‘UP’.

Meme: Save Yvonne’s Sight

I laughed a lot today. I have a cute boyfriend, wonderful boss, caring friends and a bunch of marvelous colleagues who made me laugh a lot.
It was a ‘special’ day because don’t know how, I was drinking water and all of a sudden I choked and ‘phooooooooooo’ the water out like a fountain splashing water. Whole office looking at me.
Can’t imagine how it looks like? Just like this,

If I could find a hole, I would need this place to hide immediately!
I thought of the phrase, “仙女散花”。 And immediately, I got the next connecting phrase, “liang lui pen sui”.
Can’t help but life goes on even after such an embarrassing act.

Okay, all i wanna say is, we don’t laugh, we don’t happen to be happy just because we are born with it.
Do not take these bless for granted. Be thankful. Some people out there, are not laughing as easy as we can.
They take a lot of efforts to smile…just like Yvonne. I don’t know her but one of my colleague happen to tag me to help promoting. I didn’t think much and start thinking how blessed am I and how easy I can help her.
Just write a blog entry che ma, as easy as that…but of course, do visit her blog here and you’ll find her such a normal person but so physically not normal.

Yvnonne wrote,

I have been through four surgeries since my diagnosis in year 2002. Not only did it bring me a lot of pain, it also introduced me new perspectives in life. It gave me opportunities to see the world and meet people from different cultur because of NF, I des. For all the difficulty I faced, I wish it could be easier for others to accept NF. Hence, I dedicate my website to raising awareness, in hopes that more people will be comfortable with it.

Neurofibromatosis(NF) is an illness of the nervous system. It causes benign tumors to grow in our body all our lives. There is currently no known cure for NF.

I’d really love to see her laughing as easy and as often as I do. I’d love to read her blog saying her operations were successful! I’d love to see her leading a normal yet great life like everyone else of us do.

You can also help by sending on this meme. If you do, please follow these meme rules:

1) Create a blog entry titled “Meme: Save Yvonne’s Sight”

2) List three things you love to see. Add in the picture of Yvonne’s book cover. The URL is http://www.yvonnefoong.com/images/banner/my-story.jpg

3) End with the line, “Yvonne Foong is in danger of losing her eyesight thanks to neurofibromatosis (NF). Please find out how you can help her by visiting her blog at http://www.yvonnefoong.com

4) Tag 5 blog friends. Be sure to copy the rules, OK?

5) And if you want to blog about NF, that would be great too!

5 friends….
Ruru
Chi Mien
Chilam’s
Ah Yong

Yvonne Foong is in danger of losing her eyesight thanks to neurofibromatosis (NF). Please find out how you can help her by visiting her blog at http://www.yvonnefoong.com