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Today at around 11pm, as usual, I switched off my notebook, packed and left the office. Mind was tired trying to fix some bugs in the system. Feeling guilty because I have yet to draft the design spec for the costing module that boss will need on Friday.

Feeling exhausted, the same old question appeared again. How come I am doing so many roles in this project? How come only me who has to do almost everything? How come I am involved in almost every phases of this project? If we are talking about SDLC, I’ve already did Requirement, Analysis, Design, Development, Implementation including Support.

Every once a while, I have to attend meetings to gather clients requirement, worst is the requirement is difficult to digest since the lady boss often talks in a “language” that I do not understand her. Often boss come into the picture to rescue but the synchronization of inputs between the three of us is a big question mark left unanswered! And then once a while, I have to, although I tried hard to escape those meetings with end user which ended up like bargaining in “pasar-malam”.

After a so-called requirements gathering, I often have to draft the system design, and then show manager, which sometimes is another “language” to me too. I blame myself sometimes couldn’t translate or even deliver the client’s request exactly to manager. In the end, I am left alone to think how to make it happen. Have to do analysis and this is my weakest point. I don’t like to think logic unfortunately

And often it is done parallel with development work. Development, meaning programming, is done by me, 90% of the codes is written by Elaine Ong and at the end of the day, no one is going to know what it is about
Good thing is I have few interns to help out but i am often in struggling mode when they can’t deliver what I expect. Last few weeks, had a misunderstanding with one of the intern. I realized, they need time and I can’t expect too much from them. I’ve been coding for 7 years but they are not even 7 months!
Good thing is, it is all my say when I code. I don’t care whatever standards as long as it benefits the system and user, and not the programmer. The reason why it will always take me longer time to code is because the output has to be user friendly(which XS currently lack of) and the input(the codes) has to be dynamic, reusable, and easily to be understood. Worst still, after code, I have to roll to server and i often leave the testing job to other colleagues and some times will create mistakes due to lack of testing. Today, all users couldn’t issue bills because I changed the money format from 1188 to 1,188. Adui…..

Next is implementation. When the system is deployed to live, I have to standby at client offices. Listening to the end user sarcastically comment on my system. Hello….it’s just you who don’t know how to appreciate. Give you XS existing module, you are dead!

I can’t run away from doing support, although I have a very good support guy who is mainly doing that.
Poor boy that often gets unfair and hurtful emails from the lady boss.
Have to fix bugs, reply emails during the weekend.

Last week was Matta Fair, one of Malaysia’s most popular fair, although this time it’s kinda not as happening as the previous, due to H1N1, i guess. But it must be one of the most remarkable for me. Client is using my system live, and most of the travel agency’s are not using any online system. Hey! My efforts got its return!
Despite the problematic printer issues, everything is fine, at least during the three days.
About 10 to 20 users are using my system live at the same time!!!! A very great experience for me. And this summarized and answered my questions. Yes, i have to multitask and being busy with great responsibility but it’s a chance to learn more, isn’t it?
After the complains, I often tell myself, ‘…do not count on what have you done, but to measure what else to be done to achieve success’.
I believe so. I see and learn this from my manager who often make things work and just did everything without complaining(not to me at least).

Matta Fair was tiring but it’s fun and I am mostly impressed with the teamwork that my colleagues and fellow interns show. Even the picky lady boss is satisfied.

QA – all the way from Malacca. The pretty one.

Now, this is the handsome boy who often gets ‘bomb’ from client. I called him Dung Dung Chang, because he is such a typical hakka boy, talk very loud!

XeerSoft Travel or TravelSoft but not …Hacked by Godzilla…who install this computer?!!!

End user using system, keying customer’s information

The interns and junior. Very good spirit and very helpful! Muacks!

Okay, that’s all for now. So, Ongki please stop complaining and keep working SMART and HARD! Ganbatte!!!

It is only a fine line between LOVE and HATE

An ex-colleague broke up with bf, it was such a high profile broke up that she published name and even pictures in her blog. I met the couple before. Ops, ‘then’ couple.
Honestly, I felt the way she handle is really kiddy.
I dropped her a message, I wrote, ‘…falling down in life is inevitable. we have to learn how to fall gracefully’.
She didn’t accept because she said I am saying she’s not graceful.
But honestly, that’s all I have learnt through my own experience.
Me too, was once very childish, keep hurting a guy whom I said I love so much. And of course, he didn’t hurt me less, as much as if strangling me with his own hands that I almost got breathless.

Sometimes, it’s really meaningless to hurt each other, by destroying the beautiful memories that were once shared.
Why do that? Why erase the happy ones and replaced with ugly, horrible memories?
He’s after all, someone that meant everything to you, before. You claimed that you love him forever. But how ‘forever’ is that? What does love means? Love doesn’t depend on whether he slept with another girl or not.
Love doesn’t valid only if he is willing to be with you. Love means, even when he denied you, or betrayed you, you will still wish him the best for the choice he made?

Someone wrote,

Loving someone entails putting a whole load of trust in them. This makes you very vulnerable to having that trust abused. When this happens you end up feeling all betrayed, and for some of us that usually goes straight on into hatred.

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Movie #9 with him – Talentime

#9 Talentime (Malaysian), *** 3 stars (i still prefer Sepet)

Talentime, the last movie directed by Yasmin Ahmad, the talented Malaysian director who got all my respect and admiration. This piece of work, as well, gained much of my respect, knowing that the rational of the whole movie is about the difference races of Malaysian and the issues that we all know its existence very well.

Right after the movie began, the screen was showing a school, and he whispered, ‘…looks like my school’, I said, ‘Anderson?’. Yup, it’s his school, at Ipoh.
His feedback on the movie, except his school, is boring…
Well, boredom goes well with artistic (i don’t mean you are not artistic, dear), just that you are transformer fans, no reason you’ll like slow pace movie like this.

I miss Yasmin, really miss, who else is going to produce this kind of movie that is so real to us????
Talentime has no ending, and no one gonna end it, sob sob sob

No more IP from China

Okay, I do not wish to highlight the tale about the China IP again, but hey, I’m no fantasizing, after my post about the bull shitting on his own head, there isn’t any visits from the china IP anymore!
Haha, honestly, whichever bull he is, I just don’t care…cox I know he is just a coward!

What if….

… I accept him many years ago?
His wife name would be Elaine Ong Maclaine-Cross instead of Elaine Gan Maclaine-Cross. lol, just a silly thought knowing that a guy who once wrote me a lovely poem are married to an Elaine too

But life has no turning back.

Read the book, “Who Moved My Cheese”. It’s true we should always remember to move forward, but the book didn’t mention that, in that Maze, we can always turn backward, go back to original place and re-run again.

But in real life, we only get to do things ONCE. Thus, we do things very carefully, thinking and planning, and that what makes us different from the mice, aren’t we?

Frusfrated with the demanding client…wish to reply her email,

Dear Cyn****,
If you keep pushing us like that, we might just CHANGE!!!!

Your lovely Elaine

Fuiyoh….Adobe Photoshop CS4 Extended

Another reason why I can’t wake up in the morning…the software is just too cool!!!

How to Uninstall Office Genuine Advantage (OGA) 2007

Run this DOS command at C:\>

MsiExec.exe /uninstall {B148AB4B-C8FA-474B-B981-F2943C5B5BCD}
You will be prompted if you are sure you want to unistall. Click ‘Yes’

This will uninstall the OGA notifier 1.7.0105.35.0.
Works for vista and XP

Movies with him

Our story started since last December. During these few months, we have done a lot of things together, one of it, is watching movie in cinema! Moreover, most of the movies are those that I wouldn’t watch if not because of him. Reluctant when enter the cinema, yet I was the one who was so excited during the movie.
The list is not impressive but mind you, it’s one of a breakthrough in my movie watching history!

#8 Overheard (cantonese), **** 4 stars (surprisingly good)

#7 G.I. Joe: The Rise of Cobra (english) ***** 5 stars (I was so excited that I shouted ‘yes!’ when he stopped the nanomite)

#6 Harry Potter And The Half-Blood Prince *** 3 stars (not too impressive)

#5 Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen (english) *** 3 stars (even I am in love with Megan)

#4 Ice Age 3: Dawn Of The Dinosaurs (english) ** 2 stars (but I laughed like hell)

#3 Forever Enthralled (mandarin) ** 2 stars (boring but I like this kind of movie, prefers Leslie)

#2 Night at the Museum 2: Battle of the Smithsonian (english) *** 3 stars (not bad)

#1 Terminator Salvation (english) **** 4 stars (eye opener)

Why haunt me? Who are you?

Recently my blog’s stat has been showing few China’s i.p. that has been crawling my blog every now and then.
The i.p., after checked via ipnetinfo has the same registrar name and address as the one who posted inhuman messages to my blog’s chat box in 2007!!!!

I can’t help but to feel creepy and wonder, what is this person doing here again?!!
I also can’t help but to dig those inhuman messages that he posted few years back.
I remember, the night when I first read these messages, I went insane and the pain from within my heart, the tears which froze at that winter night, in Beijing.
Ask how I feel at this moment, after almost 3 years passed, I am still feeling being haunt, being spy, being betrayed. I do not know who is the writer, until today it is still a mystery to me, although some people said its obvious. I wouldn’t want to admit it’s him unless he confessed.

When I saw those crappy messages that humiliates my family and I, I quickly unpublish the chat box and then closed my blog. I felt so shameful of the way he described me. I actually don’t believe there is such a human who hates me so much that wanted to be so evil towards me. What did I do to you? What did I do wrong to you? Do I deserve these? I didn’t delete the chat box. I still keep it well because I know, some day later I will be brave enough to face it, when I can firmly tell the world that, those are just ACCUSATIONS. It’s all a ONE-MAN-SHOW who posted the messages with my name, and then answering himself, pretending to be many parties. Bullshit…YOU ARE JUST A BULL WHO SHIT ON YOUR OWN HEAD!

Today, I am not killed, but I got stronger. Thanks to you. (If this is your quest or mission of coming to ongkichilam.com to know who Ongki is today)