Not sure what can we do, but we have been seeing doctors more then our friends.

Well, to me, more than seeing my boss!

Being assigned real tasks in the Econsave project.

I feel good….it’s exciting, challenging and it’s time for me to PROVE!

I do not know how to handle, thus I keep myself quiet, think and pause…

Try to understand before to get understood…

Bye bye 2010! Welcome 2011!

I used to be celebrating new year alone in the past. But this time, I was putting my girl to bed at the last few minutes of 31/12, sending away 2010 too. I was embracing my husband after the first few minutes of 2011, welcoming the brand new year. Yes, I guess 2010 has been one of the most significant year in my life! Got married, gave birth….the most important is, I’ve got my own family!! I was reviewing the post entry exactly a year ago, seeing how myself did at the past. Surprising enough, this was what I wrote,

To others, the next is marriage, motherhood and i guess thats the ‘maturity’ point To me, i might be ‘late’ as allen often describe me, my mentality is only at the age of 20. But no one can escape from this kind of society pressure! I leave this issues to go by nature, depends how it goes.

What? Marriage? Motherhood….I will be late???? It is not intended, I have no planning to achieve what I described as a maturity point in my life. I am not at all mature but i am trying hard and keep telling myself, I am no longer one who can do whatever, whenever i like to. As for taking responsibility of what I chose on my own, I think I should have achieved ( no other choice anyway, ) Recalled that I should be having Elise in January 2010 already, I can’t believe I was playing water rafting during the company trip to Gopeng! Only in Feb, on the very first day of CNY and exactly the first Valentine Day to celebrate with SCH, we gave ourselves the most surprising and shocking gift! For the next few months, I have been like living in a dream. Organizing my own wedding!!! Others take a year or two to plan, while I took two months to accomplished! Bravo, are we??? Things didn’t end there, in fact, it was just the beginning of another challenge of the year. Husband moved in with my family and I. It was amazing we managed to stay under this small roof for more than four months! Pity him, he has no bed, no desk, and being a ‘crocodile’ for so long. Baby got bigger, knowing she’s a girl, I named her ‘Elise’, the daughter of Elaine June, successfully survived through the Influenza A virus. Baby was five months old and we were so worried about how it will affect her. Thank god, Elise is healthy and H1N1 was just a history. Made us appreciate our precious more. July and August was all about preparation for her arrival. September was a counting down. Moved to Ipoh to expect her arrival. October arrived and on 7th, the first time we laid our eyes on her. Confinement, arguments, pain, fights….these are all I never expect it to happen yet I had one of the most dreadful month in this year. I swear to myself, it will never repeat for my next baby. 20th November, Elise’s full moon party. Invited almost 100 person’s catering party. It was fun, nice and blessed. December….everything seems to be better, slowly established the routine. Taking care of Elise, going back to work.

6/10/10 – Wednesday
- Estimated due date for delivery but still no contraction, no show, no water burst, nothing, no symptom of delivering
- Decided date for admitting to hospital for induction delivery on 7th.
- SCH back to Ipoh

7/10/10
- Admitted around 11.00am, SCH did the registration while the nurse lead me to a room where all the wonders began….
- Started by getting some personal details including health information, then was told to lie on the bed, with pants off, in front of 4 to 5 nurse trainees…yes, those Indian trainees who were then was told to shave me….(shave! omg) and they did!
- Right after that, they injected me and told me to pass motion…obviously, that injection is to help me pass motion which i felt immediately.
- Changed into green apron-like attire, rejoined SCH and being allocated to a bed where I suffered the most exciting and horrifying ten hours pain in my life!
- Nurse ‘set’ me up with the drips, blood pressure, etc

11:41am – Still managed to put a thumb showing I am still ‘alright’, still early anyway….
Nurse came, checked my opening, 3-4 cm.. Dr.George came, overheard that he said this patient should be fast.

12:18am

Each hour passed, felt the pain, which got intense and finally had two injections to reduce the pain.
The nurses were just ‘fierce’. I was yelling, complaining the pain but all they said were ‘…labor pain is like this….’
Adui, not that I don’t know but at that moment, all I can do is to shout and keep complaining. Can’t they just help to divert my attention so we can feel ‘less pain’? And luckily, there was this Indian nurse, and remind me to take deep breath.
I did, SCH keep encouraging me to do that, and since then he has been holding my hand tight until the moment i delivered.

It was only at 9pm that I was finally being transfered to the Delivery Room. I was glad, thinking that it’s finally over.
But that was the most painful hour, and each minute passed was like an hour to me. I kept asking, how long more, how long more, while seeing the doctor came in, whistling while washing his hand, with a relaxing look that made me so ‘dulan’.

And “the moment” finally came. He sit down, while I have my leg wide opened, husband beside me. Doc said ‘…just push everything out…pee, poo, just release, don’t feel shameful…’. He told us, he can see the baby’s hair already, and even showed to SCH. That encouraged me to really ‘work harder’ to go through this last step.
Well, I did, I push all I can and that was quite a way to feel less of the pain.
At the same time, I see the Doc busy handling this and that, and then using some “tool” but I have no idea, because with the sitting position, I really couldn’t see how is he ‘operating’ me.
After a while, Elise finally arrived. Doc put her in front of me, and I shall never forget the feeling and her first picture in my mind. I was so glad and really thank god for a healthy baby. All the worries of taking too much chilies, H1N1 post-effect, etc etc didn’t really cause any ‘defect’. Thank god again.

I don’t remember the exact sequence of what happened afterward, but it’s quite clear to my mind that the Doc then push my tummy, and he told me he was cleaning up the wound, cutting the plasenta, etc etc, which I have no interest to feel in detail what is he doing to me, as my eyes were already stick to my baby.
The nurse also immediately put her to me so I can breastfeed her, i did and she sucked well!
After a while, I was being sent to the ward and I was feeling so exhausted and tired, that I was so blur when SCH told me, he is going home etc.

10:07pm -DONE!!!

10:17am – Our precious

She is rather big and long compare to other babies And she is pretty…

#26 Bruce Lee My Brother (Chinese) *** 3 stars (not as I expect)

It is uncomfortable because tummy is stretching and causing cramps at the tummy area.
It is big and couldn’t find a lot of clothes that I can wear…didn’t buy many pregnancy clothes…don’t know why I can spend few hundreds for an evening dress that I might wear just a few times but not these pregnancy clothes. I just feel that it does not worth it

Well, there are many to update, life has been very challenging and a strong mentality is very important.
Nevertheless, at the mid of boredom, I do find interesting things to do, lol.

In Feb, I was 58kg, and now I weighed 74kg…

It is big but I am sure it will grow even bigger soon

It is very difficult to interrupt his StarCraft session and drag him for picture together!

Our wedding…rings

The happy soon to be mommy

A happy soon to be mommy and daddy