Perhaps…the RM10 for the ticket worth it !
Perhaps…Takeshi surprised me with his acting, that its not just his pretty face
Perhaps…Zhou Xuan is quite likeable despite her too skinny figure
Perhaps…Jacky Cheung is truly a god of singers
Perhaps…Jin Ji Hee shocked me that he actually sang the songs himself

Love…is when Takeshi’s tear slowly flow out from his eyes at the underwater scene
Love…is when Takeshi hug her when she failed and was lying on the snow ground
Love…is when Takeshi recorded his feelings when he couldn’t find her
Love…is when Jacky told her to let him go and let him just be part of the memories

You can move forward but only with an attending loss. There is a sadness, but it should not hold you back. Keep your sights on your goals and purpose and strengthen your present position.

The day I was waiting for 12 years finally arrived.
Suppose to *chase* after Chilam for all the 4 sessions but due to my bad old habit, missed the first one.
*sister use this chinese word ‘zui sing’, which directly translated as chasing star.

Yeh, i woke up late, although AS called me at 7.15am but I was too lazy to wake up. Moreover, I thought the first session was at 9.30pm but shit it, i remembered wrongly. It’s 9am!
I drove as fast as I could to reach AS house before 9.30am…guess what, he told me, “don’t worry, we can make it by 10.30am”.
I was “huh?? 10.30am? not the first session meh?”
He said we were too late, the event should have finished by the time we reached. Better aim for the second one.
I was frusfrated with myself. Why can’t i just change my bad habit? I hate morning!

2nd session : Giant Superstore Open Car Park, Bandar Puteri Puchong
Ok, we reached Puchong, Giant Superstore before 10.30am, about 10.05am, approximately.
Not many people, as expected since it’s at Puchong…but it is indeed a big crowd where I only managed to stand at the 6 or 7 rows behind. There were two vans, one with Chilam pics and the other with Charmaine’s.

She’s not too pretty but presentable loh.

Look at poor me …

the crowd @Puchong

But the stars weren’t in there…it was the VJ in there, Wai Mun, the ASTRO host. At about 10.30am, the stars finally reached in a white color van. Chilam was in purple and Charmaine in a white+purple tee. For a few seconds, I was stunned. I was thinking, so this is the Chilam that I’ve been talking about for so many years. So this is the Chilam who appears in TV, this is the Chilam who sings so well… The feeling is somehow strange and indescribeable. The event proceeded. Games and some tricky questions about the series, Point of No Return. Questions like who is the name of Chow Tin Chi first mother .

I especially like this pic of Chilam..very cute. Many times, I was thinking of taking out my Chilam album in my bag and yell to him to sing for me but many times, I failed to do so. I was really paiseh la…maybe that’s the border line of a 26th young heart but old at age little fans namely me. He’s not too tall that will makes ppl around look short. At least Charmaine didn’t. He has good built…a man who has confidence, likes to win and playful. Yeh, ‘playful’ is the best word to describe him.

3rd session : CMC Centre Car Park Entrance, Taman Connaught

It was very hot. 12 afternoon, what do you expect? My face got burnt a bit after that. But again, worth it. The crowd this time was far more fun and lively. There are some youngsters got up on stage to sing the song “Point Of No Return” but they couldn’t even memorize the lyric If i were not late, I should be the one singing there…che wah….talk only la…There was one point where VJ asked an audience on stage to play game. A gal got up and suppose to say something loving words as in the series but she was like giving a speech on her own about how she struggled to stay *here* (no idea where she suppose to go) just because of Chilam!! Lawak la…
Was a bit dissapointed because Chilam didn’t want to sing
It would be great, if he sings one or two lines. He seems impresssed that Malaysian can sing his song.

4th session : Sunway Pyramid, Boulevard

That was the most tiring session of all 3 that I attended. I was damn late, reached at about 4.45pm. The crowd was already as packed as sardine. I was so shocked…didn’t expect at all.
This time, there were fans, bringing banner, shouted and really playful and fun this time. I was actually looking at the camera screen display when they got up on stage. The a guy beside me said in a very surprise tone, “wah, cheung chi lam…” Then i look on stage directly…wow wow wow!! He was sooooo handsome!!!!! with the boyish and stylish clothes on. So charming…and his hairstyle was changed. Look very different from the previous sessions.

Well…it was a very tiring day. I was really glad one of the things I must accomplished before i leave the world was realised

Left SG last Friday evening, with a confused mind and broken heart.
But glad the excitement of meeting Chilam was still there, else the purpose of going back KL will be totally destroyed.
Went back with Jun this time. We travelled to Larkin, JB and then bought bus ticket to KL from there. It was a tiring journey and we both agreed will not take this route next time. It does not save much paying with RM compare to SGD considering all the hassles. Right, Jun? Moreover, RM35 for a bus kilang where I hardly have enough space to strain my leg straight But glad Jun was with me, it’s funny to see her over worried so much about being cheated. And I also like her slim Creative a lot..compare to my ‘dai kau sui’ which battery lasted only 1/4 of the journey.
Something she might not know, that I was really sad and thought a lot during the whole journey, thats why I couldn’t sleep la, darling…
Reached Puduraya, sister fetched , asked me why going back, I told her that I need to settle my credit cards payment, ‘sun bin’ attend Chilam’s events. Smart enough, she shot me back, “i think u wanna see Chilam ‘sun bin’ settle CC payment la, how old are you? still 16 ar?”. I was laughing in my heart, “no dear, not 16 but 26!”
Is it really that unacceptable to travel from SG to KL to see a person whom u dream of seeing for more than 10 years? Don’t understand…
Reached home at about 3am, the first thing to do was switch on the TV. I miss ASTRO so much that at one point, was thinking to shift back to KL just because of that
Woke up at about 1pm the next day. Went to Miharja for pan mee, then banks to settle payments, and then Pasar Rakyat to get return bus ticket to SG…damn, its a 12 midnite ticket! Meaning that I will reach SG in the morning! But no choice, all tickets are sold out…
SMS AS to meet at 10pm for yum cha. Called CY for meet up at the same night.
Had hokkien mee near my house with AS. Then thought of going for movie, “Narnia”, AS agreed as he had been longing to watch but I suddenly changed mind and excused it by saying I promise to meet up with CY
Met CY, we had yum cha at Pandan Indah’s “Sweet Talk”. I think AS was damn bored cox i was chatting non stop with CY. hehe…bad me, never consider his feelings…
Then he sent us home and CY waiting for her sis to fetch her. She asked me about GHOST, and i told her the whole story. Glad I didn’t cry this time, wonder why was I so emotional when i told Feli about it last time. Something strange, when she compared to LJ, i can easily clarify to her my feelings for both guys, something that made me shocked within my heart, cox i was able to give quick and spontaneous answer which I was looking for, for the past years.

I started to like Chilam when i was in Form 2, or 3?
Couldn’t tell exactly the year but its after I watched that TV show where he was singing on stage and then Anita Yuen suddenly turned up and they sang together hand in hand.
He was holding her hand and happily guided Anita who is obviously nervous and weak in singing at that time. It was very sweet, I enjoyed that video clip so much. I downloaded the video clip and whenever sad, thats my remedy.

Its not really because Chilam is especially handsome or good in singing.
He’s not as popular as Rain, not as good looking as Leon, he does not achieve as much as Andy Lau, he does not sing as good as Jacky Cheung, he does not dance as good as Aaron…but I just like him.

I actually admire the couple for publicly exposing their relationship and they are still together until now. I like Chilam voice…might sounds nothing extraordinary to others, but its a special voice for me. Indescribeable feeling when i listen to him singing when I am sad. His singing is like telling me stories.

It seems like a fantasy or dream….but in just another 3 days time, am gonna to meet the real Chi Lam! Yes, the real person!!! How to describe how excited I was when I came across the news about him coming to Malaysia…
I was jumping up and down as if there is no mass, shaking my head left and right as if I won’t feel dizzy after that, twisting my waist as if there is no spare tyre around!!! My mind was floating as if there is no gravity in this room of mine in SG.

If Feli or CY or AS is around, am gonna hug them until they couldn’t breath…
Did not think much, or, do not need to think at all…i inform the whole world, I am going back KL this coming weekend, for the event.
Chilam and Chairmaine will be coming to KL on 11th Dec 05.
From now on, 11th DEC is CHILAM DAY. I declared!!!

I WILL BE GOING BACK THIS FRIDAY!!!!!

The beautiful couple, Ai Boon and Kok Hou.

A perfect match from heaven….

I guess nobody will not agree to this…
AB, the memories with her has never get faded.
I can remember her innocence, purity, beauty and of course popularity.
Its the big day that I’ve been looking forward since HJ’s.
Recalled the first day of meeting her. It should be in F3 when she boarded “ah jeh”‘s school bus for the first time. She had a long thick shinny hair with a row of neat fringe by then. Fair complexion, sweet and broad smile on her face. Truly likeable, no wonder she’s been everybody’s favorite.
And many many years later, 10 years i guess, she’s still the same beautiful and likeable AB, and she just got married to a nice, good-looking and soft-spoken young man. Well, i guess rich as well….

Not easy to get back to KL this time. Suppose to board a coach on Thursday nite but due to work, can’t make it for the 7pm coach. Work till about 11pm and then rang PL so that I could overnight at her place instead of going back all the way to PP with a big bag to carry. PL made mushroom soup for me, its my favorite!!
The next morning, as early as 6.30am, i woke up and headed all the way to Kranji MRT station. Damn, its the furthest MRT journey I’ve ever boarded so far in SG.
Jun guided, makes life easier. Boarded bus 170, reached SG Custom checkpoint, and then boarded the same bus again to MSIA Custom. From there, took another bus to Larkin bus station. Finally, got the bus to KL!

Reached KL home, got to know that Kancil’s road tax was due. Couldn’t drive
Went to K-design salon house to have my hair dye. Then take cab to Feli’s place to pick her up before going to KLCC.
Walked around…bumped into Ms Liew from CIS. Haha, i was smart and quick enough to think that she can help me to pass the VCD to Max.
Then met WB’s gf, told me that IV resigned, as expected.
Then saw SzeY, she just asked for WL’s wedding pic URL…erm…

Then finally met the infamous MoonWalker, as Sweet catched up with him.
Still the same thin and fair guy, just not as tall as i remember he is. I think i am taller.
Then took cab from KLCC to Pudu with Sweet and Feli.
The Mongolian dinner with Sw, Feli and Vincent who joined later was great actually, with laughters and the strange dishes.
Ok, well, I paid…heartache but i think worth it…
Then yum cha with CY and Feli. Normal chat, but something i miss so much.

The next morning, Chen fetched me to Subang, AB’s sister’s house.
Was too early…but good to see how AB got make up and dressed up.
It was really lively, with ‘big’ kids and ‘small’ kids. Everyone are so busy.
Except me, nothing much to do, hehe, just snaping pictures, until the camera is dead.
The whole wedding cycle was as usual. Nothing special to mention.
Just want to express how cute is the bride and groom.
I was a bit touch when KH was told to tell the three little words to AB, and because they were too far from each other, he has to get help from the heng dai.
And they cooperated really well. He yelled “Ai Wen’…heng dai shouted “Wuo Ai Ni”!!
Not to forget the part when KH sang “Tong Hua” and everybody sing along, just like karaoke’ing. And then as usual…the boring tea ceremony, going to groom’s house, another tea ceremony and then i left…haha!

Dinner night, suppose to be the hostess but am sure the guest knows how to recognise their table number. Still need to usher meh? I think AB is over worried la, make me ‘kan cheong’ as well.
PL dressed nice…so does HJ, SY, Feli and CY. I was so worried I might be over dressed, but once i saw PL, i was so relieved! Phiew…This is because of mother and sister who keeps saying i am kua cheong!

The dinner was an ‘elegant’ one.
a) No “dai kam jeh” but MCs.
b) No karaoke but bride throwing hand flower bouquet session.
c) Great slideshows, made me impressed and a bit teary.
d) No bride keep changing gown. The last gown was just perfect, in my opinion.
She wore it nice, the dress is nice, the environment is nice…
Just couldnt get my attention out of her.

Perfect! Perfect couple, perfect wedding, perfect honeymoon (Paris), perfect, perfect, perfect!!!!!!!

Its 1.32am and I am still here in front of the notebook, while typing this, Chilam’s music is played. I got a wonderful gift from my beloved housemates this evening. Its from LS, BE, FF and MH. They got me Chilam’s compilation CD, erm, under my *advice*.
Hehe, was happy, really happy, especially when browsing through the wonderful leaflets with Chilam posing in it. Beautiful man in beautiful mood, posing beautifully, for beautiful voice over beautiful melodies

Thanks Darlings !

OK, somebody must be cursing, “Damn Ongki, still crazy over chilam, only chilam …”
Ongki : “ok la, ok la, let’s not talk about chilam la…”

Well, this is the sad part. Once i listened to the CD, someone came across my mind.
No! Not GE! Not LJ! No!!!
Its AD. I miss my friend. He said will sing “Seong Ngoi Mou Mung” when we go karaoke.
But…regret of my life.

Ok, i know he don’t like to see me sad. Cheer up girl! I know he will want me to smile more and be more positive, as he himself is.

Well, my latest obsession!

Taiwanese Series : Devil Beside You

Can someone tell me who could be as charming n handsome as Mike He?? (except chilam of course). Read across the forums, they said he got that killer smile…erm, i think he should be the cute type. He just make me laugh seeing him trying to be cool in this series. My deepest impression on him should be when he hosted the Astro Entertainment News everynite at 11pm. Well, he’s really kinda cute.
As for the leading actress, Rainie, although many are charmed by her cute n sweet look, but not for me. It could be because of her baby face that I don’t feel the feminine in her. I think Mike deserve some better, Ariel Lin still OK for me.

Oh gosh, I had spent the last weekend at home watching series and shows.
Let’s see what in the list:
1) TVB Healing Hands 3 (episode 25, 33, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 40)
- episode 36, MC kissed Betsy and left her in amusement, kakaka, definitely my fav scene.
- episode 40, Sarah told Henry to take care while caressing his face, sad that they *are not meant to be together*, i think.

2) TVB Miss Hong Kong 2005
- Can someone tell me why the heck that Tracy was crowned as winner?
- The runner up is damn ‘sok’ la! Ho jiak, ho jiak!

3) TVB Super “Cheong Mun Yan”
- i really pity the actress + singers, buat malu aje…but don’t care, cox i laugh like hell.

4) TVB Lady Fan
- yet to watch this series, download it for Alan, as i really not into Jessica.

5) TVB Beneath The Charm
- 4th episode. I really can’t stand Moses act like kid la. He has got cool, strong and stern look. Not at all look like a kiddy. Gigi Lai, kinda boring with her ler…

5) TVB Shade of the Truth
- my chilam series. as usual, he brings out his ‘yeung kwong’ character again. after wathcing him, it makes life better for me, really!
- still downloading

6) TW Devil Beside You
- as per mentioned above, obsessed!!!!
- only until episode 8, couldnt download the rest as the download site’s bandwidth is over :{ damn it! i am going to buy one original set, ‘chooi’ ah!!!

Left office quite late today, suddenly received Chen’s SMS, telling me i look very very fat when i was in form 6. Am happy, cox he remembers me

My dad always mix up Julian Chi Lam, Raymond Cho & Frankie *NM*
heidi — Friday, 28 October 2005, at 12:24 p.m

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I cant help but say that louis koo and chilam are both very good in their kissing scenes. …
If you watch chilam in PONR & perfect match w/ charmaine, my gosh, his kissing is good.

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definately Julian Cheung. watch him kiss Ruby lin in Flying dagger .. wow it’s sweet, passionate and hot.

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> Julian and Gigi- in SOT, wonderfully done as well.
> Julian is indeed a good kisser.

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