The over of the first trimester

The over of the first trimester

Yes! Survived through the first dreadful trimester. It wasn’t a pleasant experience having the feeling of vomiting and being moody, dragging myself to work every morning, looking forward for 6pm in the evening for dinner. The feeling of not able to withstand hunger was a torture.
Now, at the 21 weeks of pregnancy, things seems to get so much better.
Appetite got better, although still couldn’t be too full.
Meal time seems to be stable, as its pretty fixed with breakfast, lunch and dinner.
Seems to gain back energy as well, can shop for longer time. Don’t get tired and sleepy easily.
No more nausea, drinking milk has been a routine. In fact, now husband will prepare for me, makes the “sweetest” milk in the world 😀

Last checkup with doctor, he confirmed about 70% to 80% that baby is a girl. Honestly, a little bit of disappointed (shhh….don’t tell my daughter) as I am expecting a Soo Chi Lam. But after a while, I just have to thank god for my girl. She is healthy, growing bigger in my stomach, active as she is making a lot of butterflies in my stomach.
He wants Grace but I want Elise for her. I like this name because I like how everyone pronounce this name in the HK series ‘The Gem of Life’. There is a character carried by Linda Chung, and she is really stylish and standout in the series. I like the pronunciation. It makes me like the name more remembering my favorite score by the genius Beethoven for his infamous piece ‘Pour Elise’. What’s more, the name bear the same ‘E’ as I do 😀
If he is a boy, I might name him ‘Ethan’. But that might be for the next baby.
As for the Chinese, he suggested a name resembles his friend’s name, Soo Huey Yen (if i am not mistaken). And I leave this part to him, be fair ma….But Soo Huey Yen, or maybe Soo Huey See sounds nice to me.

It is only at this stage, the inner feeling in me finally telling me that ‘Ongki, your pregnancy is real! You are going to be a mother! There will be a lil girl calling you mother and she will be the responsibility of your whole life’!!!!!!
I was like, ‘Oh my god, what to do….what’s next? Never did I imagine myself giving birth so soon….and all of the sudden?’…..okay, no point looking back at what happened that brings me to where am i today. The more constructive thing to do is not to repeat the mistake. Just like what I told him, we must start the exact planning and start the execution to ensure she is delivered to this world having a proud parents and blessed life ahead.

23rd May, two months after marriage, we talked over, what and how does we scored as husband and wife. There are things both of us are not doing good but at least up until now, we have tried hard to cope up with the life of adjusting to each other’s attitude, style of living and of course, with all the limitation and constrains we are having now. I know this is not an ideal environment, for him but I am sure, if we both work harder, things will be better. But seeing this from another perspective, I think both of us are so blessed. We have parents to take care of us so perfectly that I think I really owe them a lot. How should I replay later?
Sometimes I am scared to owe people too much, because I do not know what can I repay them 🙁

For myself, marriage changed me tremendously. I used to be a self centric, being isolated from family, only entertaining friends and satisfying own’s need for a life that I think it should be ‘fun’. I used to just play with the computer, doing my work or freelance, or chatting with friends or maybe just blogging.
But now I don’t. I know when are the times I should have quality chat with parents and sister. I feel so much appreciating them now. Although there are things I don’t really know how to show my concern, all I do is only praying in my heart for the sick to get healthy soon.

I am still a very blessed girl and glad I found my husband who has been tolerating with me all the times (I am sincere, not that I want to flatter him knowing he will read this soon :P), and my daughter who has yet to see the real world, but thanks to her, for being healthy and growing in my stomach.

Thank god, pour Elise 😀

3 thoughts on “The over of the first trimester

  1. good to hear that you’ve got a girl…Elise Soo Huey Yen…nice name…pandai mama and papa!

    When are you free for dinner? I want to see your bebe…see more so I can get another one..

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